What are you doing this very second?

Just sitting here eating a big bowl of fruit for my lunch. While realizing just how bad my depression is. That I was actually contemplating suicide not that long ago. I even said if I use this knife I can go be with my Michael now. I just can't believe that I again thought about doing something that both God and Michael are against.
 
I am just sitting here, trying to watch Michael's concert in Bucharest. Can't do it. I wanna see him, but every time I try, I crumble. :weeping:

:hug: I am the same way Billie Jean. It has been almost 2 months since I last watch one of my many Michael related videos. Cause I just can't handle watching him now. And I just miss watching him so extremely much. :weeping:


Right now I am just sitting here covered up with 3 of my blankets along with my one teddy bear. Just listening to one of my favorite Bollywood songs that tends to make me think about Michael. As I very sadly think about him.
 
Just going to go get something to eat for my breakfast. Then I am going to go play with a few of the Neopets games. And then my Sims 3 game. Got to do something to try and get my mind off of Michael. Since I was just crying over him again not that long ago.
 
go to sleep, compensation of last night's, like some kind of demagnetization
 
finding funs in thoughts, really funny
when i had finished my current topic, then only 2 leaves......... @@
wanna sooner............. at the same time every trip of thought is really happy if you found the true shinning points
 
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