Dear Michael,
Right now I really cannot put in words how upset I feel. These past months have been the worst, and I can't tell you how much I miss you, its unbelievable. Waking up, I feel the most empty feeling possible and I look at you on my wall and feel lost. I miss you so much, I don't know what to do or say.
The only thought however, that is carrying me on right now is the idea you're up in Heaven watching down on us now knowing how much we all love you, how much I truly love you. Now you must finally be at peace, happy and in a better place, because you really were too good for this world. An angel in disguise.
Your talent and genius never failed to amaze me. I remember first becoming a fan, staying up late to watch your videos on TV, putting all your pictures on my wall, kissing them goodnight and thinking the day I meet him will be the best day of my life. Now I'm just thinking how much I miss you and how I never got to tell you how much you mean to me. You mean everything to me. Your music helped me through such a tough time in my life, and I can never thank you enough for it. Words fail me at saying what you mean to me, and this is exactly why now I'm so devastated at the fact you've left us. At times I feel angry and fustrated this has happened, I think of all you still wanted to do in your life and how you said you never wanted to die. I don't think I'll ever fully understand why you were taken away from us, nor will I fully accept it, it is still the biggest shock.
But Michael, you really mean everything to me. I can't stop crying and I feel so lost without you. Before I'd turn to you when upset and in need of comfort, as your music never failed to help me so much. Now, I don't know what to do. But I want to thank you for everything you've done for this earth. Your undeniable genius, prolific music and dancing, your healing the world and humanitarian work and generally just being yourself, which brought so much happyness to me and millions around the world.
I need you to know how much I love you and how I always will. I love you more than anything Michael, and God knows how much I miss your smile and everything about you. May you finally be peaceful, at rest and truly happy, as nobody deserves it more than you.
I love and miss you so much Michael, you'll be with me until the end. :weeping: