I'm heartbroken.I didn't think it could be more painful than it already was,but all the recent events are crushing my spirit.I'm exhausted and I didn't really do anything today.My whole body hurts.
We shouldn't have to be dealing with this chaos.
Fake vocals,confusion and constant embarrassment instead of the excitement of a new album,the first album since he left.It should be something done with the utmost care.It should be a celebration of this great man's talent,a precious gift to help us find some sort of comfort,but instead it adds to the pain.Michael had the biggest respect for his art and his public.How dare $ony & the Estate mess with both of these things in such an atrocious way? How far these people have gone out of greed is mind-blowing.
His own family turning against his wishes,selling his privacy and dragging his name through the mud instead of working together to cement his legacy.In my opinion, his mother failed to protect him as a child,so it didn't come as a big surprise to me that she now fails to protect his memory...or his children.He adored and worshipped that woman and I have no doubt she loves her son,but it's also clear to me she's betrayed him.Michael was always gracious when going public about his family.Why can't they act in the same way towards him? Is it really that hard to show loyalty and respect to your own blood?
I get they are human and have their own feelings,but why do they say things they didn't dare when he was here? If they are not going to defend him,at least I would expect they didn't add fuel to the negative way in which the media likes to portray Michael.But this is exactly what keeps happening almost every time they open their mouths.I'm disgusted.
I was watching the EMA's earlier.I didn't feel like it and didn't pay much attention,but what I saw made my day even worst.They presented their first-ever global icon award and then there was the Free Your Mind award.All the time I was thinking of Michael and everything felt so empty.I'm aware there are more artists and contrary to what it may seem to someone reading my mind at that moment I'm fine with that fact and I don't mean no one else deserves such honours.But when I watch this and confront it to the reality above I feel everything is upside down.Reality is oh so absurd and I can't make any sense of it.
I saw a post on another site that described the feelings I'm having much better than I'm able to,so I hope the author doesn't mind me quoting her here :
We shouldn't have to be dealing with this chaos.
Fake vocals,confusion and constant embarrassment instead of the excitement of a new album,the first album since he left.It should be something done with the utmost care.It should be a celebration of this great man's talent,a precious gift to help us find some sort of comfort,but instead it adds to the pain.Michael had the biggest respect for his art and his public.How dare $ony & the Estate mess with both of these things in such an atrocious way? How far these people have gone out of greed is mind-blowing.
His own family turning against his wishes,selling his privacy and dragging his name through the mud instead of working together to cement his legacy.In my opinion, his mother failed to protect him as a child,so it didn't come as a big surprise to me that she now fails to protect his memory...or his children.He adored and worshipped that woman and I have no doubt she loves her son,but it's also clear to me she's betrayed him.Michael was always gracious when going public about his family.Why can't they act in the same way towards him? Is it really that hard to show loyalty and respect to your own blood?
I get they are human and have their own feelings,but why do they say things they didn't dare when he was here? If they are not going to defend him,at least I would expect they didn't add fuel to the negative way in which the media likes to portray Michael.But this is exactly what keeps happening almost every time they open their mouths.I'm disgusted.
I was watching the EMA's earlier.I didn't feel like it and didn't pay much attention,but what I saw made my day even worst.They presented their first-ever global icon award and then there was the Free Your Mind award.All the time I was thinking of Michael and everything felt so empty.I'm aware there are more artists and contrary to what it may seem to someone reading my mind at that moment I'm fine with that fact and I don't mean no one else deserves such honours.But when I watch this and confront it to the reality above I feel everything is upside down.Reality is oh so absurd and I can't make any sense of it.
I saw a post on another site that described the feelings I'm having much better than I'm able to,so I hope the author doesn't mind me quoting her here :
I know that last paragraph sounds quite extreme and I may feel different tomorrow.I don't even know if I would have said this myself,but when I read it,after this long day,it mirrors my feelings.I don't know if I'm completely out of the game regarding future endeavours.I don't know if I will regain that thrill or not.But right now I feel drained and very very sad.I miss you Michael,I miss you terribly.
It's past 10am and I guess I should try to get some sleep.I hope to find a brighter day when I wake up.
