I was online checking this site out and another one, my mother came in and asked to check something online. As we switched positions, she went to aol.com and we saw the headline "Michael Jackson rushed to the hospital". I was like "what?" I was thinking 'Oh man, I hope he's ok." But I never thought he'd...Then I came here, my mother wanted to find out what was happening too, so then I saw the thread of him being taken away by an ambulance. My mother had CNN on...I went to E! online who was reporting what Joe said about him not knowing how bad Michael was..etc...etc...It was INSANE. I watched it all go down, and then when it was starting to be reported that he'd died, I remember seeing that here from TMZ and I remember rushing off the computer and asking if CNN had said anything about him dying? It was so confusing. CNN was still reporting MJ was rushed to the hospital, then I went upstairs and flipped to E! and they had 'Breaking News' and it was them saying 'Michael Jackson has Died', and then MSNBC said he was in a coma...I just didn't know WHAT to believe. I kept thinking he'll be ok...he'll be ok. I even prayed at one point, which is something I rarely do. Then I went down stairs, my mother told me to stay with her, and I started crying when the coma report was given on CNN, and my mother put her arms around me and said 'Come on Mike. Come on. He'll be ok." And then when I got up to go in the kitchen I came back a few moments later and it was being reported by CNN that he had passed away. I couldn't take it. My mother told me to stay and I cried. It hurt so badly. She said, "Well, at least now he's at peace." I just couldn't take it, then I was numb and sat in total disbelief as MTv started playing his music videos and 'paying tribute' and I was like, "WTF! NOW THEY PLAY HIS MUSIC!" It was heart breaking...it really didn't truly hit me until later that night and I just lost it. My mother again held me, and she told me it was just hitting me and...the pain still hasn't gone away and I know in my heart it never will. I cried like a night or two later over the phone with a good friend of mine whom I hadn't spoken with in a while and she and I both just sobbed. We're friends BECAUSE OF MICHAEL. I was crying and I said, "I already miss him SO much." And I will ALWAYS miss him.
My thoughts and prayers go out to Michael's family and his three beautiful children, and to everyone else here.
We will never let him part, for he is ALWAYS in our hearts...
