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Can't say I'm relieved that Michael is no longer with us. His kids certainly aren't relieved.
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Michael loved life with all the good and the bad things that came with it...he loved life with a passion, that's where all his passion came from!
he was terrified of death...poor thing, it's good he didn't know what was coming for him, he went to sleep a happy man he didn't have to see death in the face he was so scared of it
did you know that when he was on tour he used to travel by car instead of a plane when there was bad weather? his tour employees said it was so frustrating for them because they were wasting time but Michael chose that because he was afraid of accidents on bad weather i.e. he was afraid of death
as for his kids, I lost my father when I was 13 and I'm telling you growing up without a father is no fun...and on top of that you miss him too..for the rest of your life
I'm heartbroken that Michael isn't able to perform no more.
I'm heartbroken that the entertainment industry has died.
I'm heartbroken that Michael's children don't have a father no more.
I'm heartbroken that the one that raised me isn't here no more.
But I'm relieved that Michael don't have to suffer no more, and that no one can hurt him, never again.
BUT HE ALWAYS ROSE ABOVE IT. He had thruth in his heart and his talents and beauty inside and out conqored. His children and family and fans and music and dance brought him the most joy in the world.
Yes, he's in a better place now, but he'd much rather have still been living for another 20-30 years I'm sure of it.
But I'm relieved that Michael don't have to suffer no more, and that no one can hurt him, never again.
no I am not relieved God damn it, his children are left with no father!
no pain in the world was not to be overcome knowing that his family was with him. this is beyond injustice.![]()
I guess if one is relieved is dependent on if one believe that there is something (whatever) waiting for us after this life.
As everyone can see I've just lost my boyfriend lately also. We knew he would die. I was his fulltime nurse the last weeks, he wasn't able to leave bed anymore the last weeks, got a lot of very strong medication etc. etc... one can say his last weeks were only suffering. Still we knew he would die... I have known this already a year ago and the difference is we had a chance to say good bye.
I will refrain from saying that easier/better or harder/worse than the way Michael died.
Still I got the lesson, there is a point or even moment life ends... whatever you can try or say. We're never really ready for it and that's why we're not asked. We can't ever be ready for such a loss. But I want to share this my boyfriend had to suffer a lot his last days, I was like always into tears only... and I'm really not someone overemotional or even crying easily... it was just hard to see and not being able to really help him, sometimes it hurted so much to see him like that it seemed hard to only breathe.
If we do believe the reports we got Michael died in his sleep.
Of cuz from personal experience only I think there's a lot of blessing in it.
Yes Michael was only 50... my boyfriend was only 41 almost 42... and there's children dying every day after having been the majority of time of their lives very sick.
Why am I saying this... cuz ppl often tend to look into only one direction.
Whatever caused Michaels death... maybe if he wouldn't lots of suffering was only waiting for him... maybe lots of misery... life is not only bright and happy and full of success.
I understand those of you who are saying but it is beautiful... yes I do believe that also... I love this life the way it is. Gosh I really had a beautiful relationship and really perfect years lately.
Still there is a moment we have to leave life, everybody will sooner or later. Some of us will not leave it too easily... for some of us lots of suffering is waiting before we will be allowed to leave. And for the ppl who love us the moment will never be really right.
My boyfriend once said, ppl are allowed to die for that they do not have to suffer forever. To me that is truely the sense I can find in death.
Michael is save now. He is not suffering. And even though it will might be heavy on his heart to now see his children suffering from his loss, he knows in the end it will be all good... because I do believe that Michael now understands all we're not able to cuz we're still only here. He knows the reason why he had to leave this early. He knows the reason why there is this much suffering in this world. He knows why we limited humans are not able to just keep peace and understanding for eachother but go on fighting... he knows all that now, he understands it and that's why it's not bothering him anymore... and he knows in the end it will be all good.
Well of cuz you have to believe that or something like this to feel a relief about his loss or call it if you find comfort like this. But yes I do believe he is where it's all good for him now and I understand the relieve in knowing him just save now... there is some comfort in this thought helping me missing him as I do too.
I even feel in those moments I break down crying (not only cuz of Michael but of cuz even more cuz of the loss of my bf), it's more I'm really feeling sorry for myself cuz of being alone now, cuz of having to face everything without his support and tenderness now. But I guess there's still something meant for me to do here... so I'm willing to first do that.
and I don't think feeling like this or believing this makes someone a better or worse fan.
We're just the way we are.
I just hope for the tolerance of those not believing the same and feeling different and can assure all of my tolerance also of cuz.
In a way I agree with Topflux.
Don't get me wrong, I'm at a range of emotions from shock, to sadness (I just start crying suddenly out of the blue--especially after the memorial service--when it just finally hit me that Michael is gone.
Now, along with sadness, I'm filled with rage--seething rage against all of those people that had a hand in making Michael's life filled with unnecessary drama. From the false accusers of the 1993 and of 2003, the media who basically helped them get away their lies by purposely turning a blind eye to their wrong doing just so they can have an 'excuse' to belittle and dehumanize Michael, people who were nothing but wolves in sheeps' clothing, who betrayed him then (and who are profiting and benefiting off of his death now). I'm angry that EVERY TIME Michael planned on doing something great or making a comeback in some way, there was ALWAYS something conveniently coming along to ruin it.
Most of all, I'm angry that Michael, who was as good as they come, is gone; his beloved children are without their beloved father, and all of the jerks who have made his life miserable over the years are still walking the face of this earth---some even using his death to get their 15 minutes of fame and/or career advancement at his expense--while others are doing their best to smear his memory and legacy just like they smeared and killed his character when he was alive.
So, in a way, one bright side about Michael's death (IF THERE IS ONE) is that he's not hurting anymore at the hands of these no-good people. They cannot add on anymore stress to his life. He can finally have peace. I just feel sorry for his children and his blood-family who don't have him anymore in their lives.
BUt,my sisters are telling me that if he performed the concerts they will tear him a part just like what are they doing now in the media , and he would probably die out of sadness. and God wanted to make him die while happy and dreaming of a good tommorrow.
I guess if one is relieved is dependent on if one believe that there is something (whatever) waiting for us after this life.
As everyone can see I've just lost my boyfriend lately also. We knew he would die. I was his fulltime nurse the last weeks, he wasn't able to leave bed anymore the last weeks, got a lot of very strong medication etc. etc... one can say his last weeks were only suffering. Still we knew he would die... I have known this already a year ago and the difference is we had a chance to say good bye.
I will refrain from saying that easier/better or harder/worse than the way Michael died.
Still I got the lesson, there is a point or even moment life ends... whatever you can try or say. We're never really ready for it and that's why we're not asked. We can't ever be ready for such a loss. But I want to share this my boyfriend had to suffer a lot his last days, I was like always into tears only... and I'm really not someone overemotional or even crying easily... it was just hard to see and not being able to really help him, sometimes it hurted so much to see him like that it seemed hard to only breathe.
If we do believe the reports we got Michael died in his sleep.
Of cuz from personal experience only I think there's a lot of blessing in it.
Yes Michael was only 50... my boyfriend was only 41 almost 42... and there's children dying every day after having been the majority of time of their lives very sick.
Why am I saying this... cuz ppl often tend to look into only one direction.
Whatever caused Michaels death... maybe if he wouldn't lots of suffering was only waiting for him... maybe lots of misery... life is not only bright and happy and full of success.
I understand those of you who are saying but it is beautiful... yes I do believe that also... I love this life the way it is. Gosh I really had a beautiful relationship and really perfect years lately.
Still there is a moment we have to leave life, everybody will sooner or later. Some of us will not leave it too easily... for some of us lots of suffering is waiting before we will be allowed to leave. And for the ppl who love us the moment will never be really right.
My boyfriend once said, ppl are allowed to die for that they do not have to suffer forever. To me that is truely the sense I can find in death.
Michael is save now. He is not suffering. And even though it will might be heavy on his heart to now see his children suffering from his loss, he knows in the end it will be all good... because I do believe that Michael now understands all we're not able to cuz we're still only here. He knows the reason why he had to leave this early. He knows the reason why there is this much suffering in this world. He knows why we limited humans are not able to just keep peace and understanding for eachother but go on fighting... he knows all that now, he understands it and that's why it's not bothering him anymore... and he knows in the end it will be all good.
Well of cuz you have to believe that or something like this to feel a relief about his loss or call it if you find comfort like this. But yes I do believe he is where it's all good for him now and I understand the relieve in knowing him just save now... there is some comfort in this thought helping me missing him as I do too.
I even feel in those moments I break down crying (not only cuz of Michael but of cuz even more cuz of the loss of my bf), it's more I'm really feeling sorry for myself cuz of being alone now, cuz of having to face everything without his support and tenderness now. But I guess there's still something meant for me to do here... so I'm willing to first do that.
and I don't think feeling like this or believing this makes someone a better or worse fan.
We're just the way we are.
I just hope for the tolerance of those not believing the same and feeling different and can assure all of my tolerance also of cuz.
thank you! *hugs*omg I am so so sorry Mechi for the loss of your boyfriend I have only just seen your sig...I am truely sorry for you and sending you *hugs* and love xxx
My mind is fucked and my heart is broken right now. Of all the thoughts, emotions & feelings I have, "relieved" is not one of them. It seeems that these last 3 weeks have just passed by without me; life continues, days go by, and yet I'm still back at 3 weeks ago, like it was just yesterday that I heard. It's weird for me. Still raw. I don't know when it'll sink in.
I felt the same amount of shock reading your words "I'm kinda relieved Michael passed away", as I did when I heard about Michael 3 weeks ago. Only difference is instead of heartbroken, disbelief shock, it's a disgusted shock. It's weird and kinda disgusting to me that you would think or say that.
Everybody deals in their own way, fair enough, but this thread is just... whatever. Kinda sick.
The fact is, Michael was terrified of death. It's like he had a morbid fear of death. Whenever anybody mentioned death or dying, he would freak out.
He loved life. Despite everything he went through, he still somehow loved life. Not necessarily HIS life in the sense of the situations he faced, but in the sense of just being alive. He was so alive with spirit & love. If somebody was to take a good experience & give it to him, he would make it a million times more exciting & wonderful. Life just ran through his blood and radiated around him, like a halo of light. He WAS life. You only had to look at him & he'd do something to you. His smile was contagious, his mere presence made people feel...indescribable.
If I was to write about all the things he had to live for, I'd be here a very long time.
There's no consolation for the fact he's not here. Sure, in our hearts & minds he'll never die, he'll never be buried, he'll never go.
That's all very nice & all, and it's so true... But it still ain't the same as him actually being here. 'Cause there's no reason for him to not still be here. He wasn't supposed to go yet. He didn't want to. Too much to live for
It's the story of his life; whenever something good happened for him, something or someone would always ruin it. And now this. Just as something good was happening, his life was about to turn around, he's gone. So no, I don't feel relieved. I feel heartbroken & angry
GO TO HELL!!
How can you possibly find something positive from this?????!!!! I feel like slapping you!!![]()
My mind is fucked and my heart is broken right now. Of all the thoughts, emotions & feelings I have, "relieved" is not one of them. It seeems that these last 3 weeks have just passed by without me; life continues, days go by, and yet I'm still back at 3 weeks ago, like it was just yesterday that I heard. It's weird for me. Still raw. I don't know when it'll sink in.
I felt the same amount of shock reading your words "I'm kinda relieved Michael passed away", as I did when I heard about Michael 3 weeks ago. Only difference is instead of heartbroken, disbelief shock, it's a disgusted shock. It's weird and kinda disgusting to me that you would think or say that.
Everybody deals in their own way, fair enough, but this thread is just... whatever. Kinda sick.
The fact is, Michael was terrified of death. It's like he had a morbid fear of death. Whenever anybody mentioned death or dying, he would freak out.
He loved life. Despite everything he went through, he still somehow loved life. Not necessarily HIS life in the sense of the situations he faced, but in the sense of just being alive. He was so alive with spirit & love. If somebody was to take a good experience & give it to him, he would make it a million times more exciting & wonderful. Life just ran through his blood and radiated around him, like a halo of light. He WAS life. You only had to look at him & he'd do something to you. His smile was contagious, his mere presence made people feel...indescribable.
If I was to write about all the things he had to live for, I'd be here a very long time.
There's no consolation for the fact he's not here. Sure, in our hearts & minds he'll never die, he'll never be buried, he'll never go.
That's all very nice & all, and it's so true... But it still ain't the same as him actually being here. 'Cause there's no reason for him to not still be here. He wasn't supposed to go yet. He didn't want to. Too much to live for
It's the story of his life; whenever something good happened for him, something or someone would always ruin it. And now this. Just as something good was happening, his life was about to turn around, he's gone. So no, I don't feel relieved. I feel heartbroken & angry