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when will i start to feel normal again?

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i know greif is different in different people,
i,ve been a fan of michaels for 22yrs,i love every ounce of the man,i just can,t seem to click out of this depression,
my family don,t understand,they are still beleiving every tabloid crappy articles that come out,
i find myself wanting to beleive in storys that he has faked it all,
i know michael has died,but i want to beleive in those kind of storys because it kinda gives me a little hope,bt in reality i know michael would never have done this to his family or fans,
don,t worry i would never do anything stupid,because i have a 10 yr old daughter who i love dearly,
i went out to america for the momorial and to get some sort of closure,which i don,t feel i got,i didn,t get tickets to go into the staples,instead i was behind the police barrier outside the staples,
i thought while i was out in america i was getting a little better ,but now i am back home,i feel lost again,
the ot her day at my familys home,my neice asked me if i had gotton any closure going over there,my sister added no she still goes on the website,my mother went huh under her breathe,this really got to me ,why should i forget he even existed.
 
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I understand the pain. The thing i find with overcoming grief is that you never actually know when it starts to get better until you unexpectedly one day just realize out of the blue if you understand what i mean.
You don't really overcome grief, it overcomes you. There's a part of me that will never truly be over Michaels death, and i assume this is the same with everyone here, but we really have to continue with our lives and be strong for ourselves and for him too.
He did it for us, let's return the favour.
 
Aww :( I know hun. It's soo hard and when you don't have the support of friends/family, it makes it even worse and you feel so alone :( I know I do. I want you to know I'm here for you *hugs* if you want to talk.
I'm having trouble getting out of this...this grief feels like it's taking over me :(
 
I've been wondering this too. I want this feeling to just go, but I'm also clinging onto it in a way because I don't want to forget and move on. It's so confusing. I keep hearing the words from when I found out in my head "we can now confirm that Michael Jackson has died". It keeps just coming into my head. I don't really know why or how. I feel like a broken record, keep coming on here saying I'm heartbroken, I feel so down, I don't know how I'll get through. I guess you could say I feel kind of trapped. :( I just wish this wasn't happening.
 
me too stacey,it,s just awful,i was in bed at the time,i had my landline phone turned of at the mains because it,s connected to my router and the plug gets hot,anyway usually i don,t have my mobile turned on at night,
i do beleive this to be a coinsidance but before i received the phonecall i was lying in bed unable to sleep and had a pain in my left arm,and then my mobile rang with i want you back playing,
i remember my brother saying i,ve got some bad news,don,t worry its not family,
he said michael jacksons dead,
i just keep hearing these words over and over again in my head,i just can,t shake them off,if it wasn,t for you guys i don,t know what i,d do,
 
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i dont know if this is a help or what but i have come to the realization that, I will never recover from this. This will never be 'normal' to me...

when i lost my best friend and our youngest child, i have never gotten over that. That loss is constantly with me and i now understand that it is part of me.

The loss of Michael is no different. I can only move forward the best way i know how. take each day as it comes and go forward with my life.
 
MJJChichi said:
i dont know if this is a help or what but i have come to the realization that, I will never recover from this. This will never be 'normal' to me...

when i lost my best friend and our youngest child, i have never gotten over that. That loss is constantly with me and i now understand that it is part of me.

The loss of Michael is no different. I can only move forward the best way i know how. take each day as it comes and go forward with my life.
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thanks chichi
 
when will you start to feel normal again? hard to say. the best advice i can give you is be kind to yourself and grieve in your own way.
 
I never want to let Michael go. And I'm afraid if I stopped feeling the sadness, that it's the same as "letting him go". What does 'letting him go' really mean though? When I hear this, I always think of the movie titanic...At the end Rose is holding onto Jack's hand and says "I'll never let you go...I'll never let you go..." and what does she do? She let's his hand go...It always bothered me. I know she probably meant it in a different way, but I feel like I'll be letting Michael go if I stop grieving. It's hard to explain. I wish I had better words for this...
 
MichaelJackson4Ever said:
I never want to let Michael go. And I'm afraid if I stopped feeling the sadness, that it's the same as "letting him go". What does 'letting him go' really mean though? When I hear this, I always think of the movie titanic...At the end Rose is holding onto Jack's hand and says "I'll never let you go...I'll never let you go..." and what does she do? She let's his hand go...It always bothered me. I know she probably meant it in a different way, but I feel like I'll be letting Michael go if I stop grieving. It's hard to explain. I wish I had better words for this...
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thats exactly how i feel,
 
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