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A part of me was gone
Dont give up:no:We are here to support him:yes::hug:I am really missing him today myself. It was just this afternoon I was back to really crying over him and how much I was missing him. And just wishing so much I was dead now. Because I just really hate living anymore. I used to L.O.V.E. life so much when we still had him. But now I just plainly hate living and just want to be with Michael now it is all that I want now. Especially since I can no longer feel any sort of happiness now. What is the point of living when you can't feel any happiness anymore. Dr. Death forever took my main source of happiness away from me. Thanks to that murderer I am now totally the opposite of how I used to be. :sad: :boohoo: And I just really hate feeling sad, miserable, depressed, sick, and angry all of the time now.
Yes his spirit is around us all the time:yes::yes:Yes, I know. It is very difficult. I go through phases where I cry over him (rare for me to cry, since I'm not the emotive type) only to follow up with numbness, which is closer to how I really am on the inside, but whenever I think of him, I get the urge to cry. It seldom happens that I do recognize and give in to emotion, but when it rains it pours, like they say.
I feel the loss in a different way. It's really quite difficult to explain. It's the feeling that something's gone, and I am sure all of you have also felt it, but that is how I feel it most. Yet at times, I feel as if he's still here, somehow, still here with us, although we can't see or hear him. I don't think he would abandon us, and I can feel him sometimes. I am sure the rest of you must at times feel him too. That makes the loss easier to deal with, but he is still, well, lost.
Still, I think of him every day, and I love him every day, and I will, until the day I die.