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100 days without our king

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its been 100 days and I wonder why am I still here really :(
I am still asking why..why this had to happen. I do not feel like I got any answers. I lived 100 days in absolute pain, the worst pain I've ever felt.
its just misery..
 
:heart: AAAaaawwww, hun. I know just how you feel... but just remember that a TRUE King, or a loved one (because to me, he's just Lil' ol' Mikey, LOL) lives FOREVER in your heart and in your memories. I know this has been said over a zillion times on this forum... but it is the truth. I hate to say this (well... not really), but I really do believe he is in a much better place now. And he is more happy and alive than he ever was. :huggy:
 
I can't believe its been that long already. And I agree with you MJstarlight. And all I have been doing for the past 12 hours or so. Is just really cry on and off over Michael. As I listen to him. Even though that is all I've been doing since it happen. But it was really bad yesterday afternoon after I had gotten up. Since I only gotten just a little more than 90 minutes worth of sleep the night before. I turn my laptop back on and came in to this site. And I read that breaking news story. It really made me very sick and upset after reading it. It just made the reality of that nightmare that I had back in early July all the more real. I just know it was Michael coming to me and telling me that he was murdered. Then in August my nightmare really did came true. I am still very much in pain and I am still hurting over Michael. Which is why it is now 3:58 am and I am still up. Because of my insomnia that I had during these past days. Which was all brought on by these horrible nightmares that I had of Michael. Nightmares that Dr. Murderer is causing me to have because of what he has done to my beloved Michael. It just makes me so damn angry when I think about Dr. Death. And what he has done to my beloved Michael. I am just so sick and tired of always feeling the way I do. Sorry starlight if I had ruin your post in any way. Is just that I am just so sick and tired of having to live in world now while Michael's haters are still alive and he is dead now. I just wish it was the other way around.
 
Wow...really? :(
That is so long. It still feels like there is no time, everything just merges together.
 
Woah, 100 days. I can't believe it's been that long already, it certainly doesn't feel like it. :cry:
 
This year is so bad.. i was thinking that 2009 (9 is good number for ppl in here) is supposted to be a good year for come back of the king but ... tons of tears for the KING only this year. I missing him so much and every day and night still hard for me.
someday ok someday not ok especially at night :(
Last night at cinema for Time traveler's wife and I was thinking of him ...If MJ can travel back to US if he can .. i'd run like her to catch him in time i def do that :(
...i want him back
 
it's still very painful. I still can't accept the thought of him not being here... thank god for this forum, at least here I can be myself and not hide my feelings.
 
MJsBollywoodGirl7 said:
I can't believe its been that long already. And I agree with you MJstarlight. And all I have been doing for the past 12 hours or so. Is just really cry on and off over Michael. As I listen to him. Even though that is all I've been doing since it happen. But it was really bad yesterday afternoon after I had gotten up. Since I only gotten just a little more than 90 minutes worth of sleep the night before. I turn my laptop back on and came in to this site. And I read that breaking news story. It really made me very sick and upset after reading it. It just made the reality of that nightmare that I had back in early July all the more real. I just know it was Michael coming to me and telling me that he was murdered. Then in August my nightmare really did came true. I am still very much in pain and I am still hurting over Michael. Which is why it is now 3:58 am and I am still up. Because of my insomnia that I had during these past days. Which was all brought on by these horrible nightmares that I had of Michael. Nightmares that Dr. Murderer is causing me to have because of what he has done to my beloved Michael. It just makes me so damn angry when I think about Dr. Death. And what he has done to my beloved Michael. I am just so sick and tired of always feeling the way I do. Sorry starlight if I had ruin your post in any way. Is just that I am just so sick and tired of having to live in world now while Michael's haters are still alive and he is dead now. I just wish it was the other way around.
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no you didnt ruin it at all... :hug:
actually a few days after June 25th... I had a nightmare that Dr. attacked Michael, that the dr was choking Michael.. it felt so real.my god :cry: It was so vivid and I still have the image in my mind. It felt like I was there in the room watching it happen. It was like Michael trying to tell me he was hurt and that someone hurt him. Ever since then I have been very disturbed. I want to help Michael but I feel so hopeless. And 100 days and still no answers... I just wish I could see Michael one more time and tell him how much we love him. I hate this world now.. its just so painful!
 
Gee 100 days where's the time gone.Still hard to Believe. Michael will always be with us.Miss you MJ.

Susannah xx
 
MJstarlight said:
no you didnt ruin it at all... :hug:
actually a few days after June 25th... I had a nightmare that Dr. attacked Michael, that the dr was choking Michael.. it felt so real.my god :cry: It was so vivid and I still have the image in my mind. It felt like I was there in the room watching it happen. It was like Michael trying to tell me he was hurt and that someone hurt him. Ever since then I have been very disturbed. I want to help Michael but I feel so hopeless. And 100 days and still no answers... I just wish I could see Michael one more time and tell him how much we love him. I hate this world now.. its just so painful!
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I'm glad starlight that I didn't ruin your thread. OMG starlight my nightmare was very vivid as well. In my nightmare I was practically in the same room with Michael. Watching him die and there was nothing I could do to stop it. What makes that nightmare that I have worst for me. Is that Michael's children were in that nightmare as well. OMG did it ever hurt to see them sitting together crying over their father. I still have those horrible images from my nightmare stuck in my head. So I do agree with you starlight I hate this world just as much as you do. It really is just so painful to even think about it now. And I would give anything to have Michael back with us again.
 
MJstarlight said:
its been 100 days and I wonder why am I still here really :(
I am still asking why..why this had to happen. I do not feel like I got any answers. I lived 100 days in absolute pain, the worst pain I've ever felt.
its just misery..
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aww :huggy: we are all here for you darl, if you need to talk about anything, just send me a message I'm only to happy to listen :)
 
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