Re: appleheads!
Last f***ing page, thank you Jesus!
Good morning everybody. Thanks for the well wishes last night :hug: I was hoping Michael would come to me in my dreams but no such luck. I don't know what his problem is
I'm feeling better, well about the Michael situation anyway. I'm still really stressed out about some future plans I have that are in some serious jeopardy. I swear, the stress just never goes away.
I'm so glad I came to these boards. It just sucks that I didn't come BEFORE everything that happened.
Fine@London, and you??
Sitting here listening to "Time Waits For No One" and wondering when I can go to Cali and be outside the courthouse to throw Bologna sammiches at Dr. Murray when he goes to trial..
Oh please throw some tor me. That bastard makes me want to vomit, and all the others who "cared" about him. Looks like the clock's ticking for him...
this is my birth year aint he cute :heart:
Awwww "pinches Michael's cute little cheeks* I could just eat him up
lol @ he grew up
thanks girly
Thanks Van
I'ma blow Vegas up in the coming year, it's been too long since I had a vaca
I'd love to go to Vegas again. I had a blast the last time I went. This time I'd like to go to some shows. I can't remember the last time we went somewhere cool. Being poor sucks.
i was very sad yesterday but im better today because i cried it all out i guess
but yeah, i miss mike lots and lots and lots
That's how I was last night. I went to take a shower and just cried my eyes out. It helped but soon after I just needed to go to bed. After a month and a half all the pain and agony is still there. I want him back with us so much
it's ok. sometimes i forget he is gone since we celebrate his life so hard in this thread for instance so i guess it builds up when i realize he isn't here anymore. sigh, sigh, sigh, sigh.
i miss you, mike!
Exactly. It's like we feel so damn good, talking about him, swooning over him and whatnot, but then afterward the reality sits back in and it's like we're grieving all over again and it feels like it's ten times worse than the last time.
sorry I just feel so empty.. I've been resting a couple hours but I cant sleep.
I think im still in shock.. Michaels birthdays only in a couple weeks, its going to be such a sad day
*groans* I don't even want to think about that right now. And it's just days after the 25th. I'll be keeping as busy as I possibly can both those days, and hanging out here as well with you all :hug:
Girl I remember when Thriller premiered, JAG I know u feel me on this.. Nobody in my neighborhood was outside.. The phones didn't ring, not even the birds were singing.. They was perched on the window sills of houses because everyone was watching MJ's Thriller and when it went off omg, the phone lines were busy.. Even my dad had to stop and watch it... MJ shut it down..
The Victory Tour, I had fourth row seats center stage bcuz my mom's friend was dating one of his security guards.. Omg, that lanky thing showed his ass during that show. I was 6yrs old going on 7 in a few wks when I saw that show. My mom and her friends danced harder than I did.. Jackie didn't perform bcuz he had a broken leg, my mom was hurt cuz that was her boo. I had on my glove (my aunt was a flight attendant and she got it in Japan), my Beat it Jacket, black highwater pants, glitter socks, and my MJ shirt. Oh and my curl was extra juicy just like Mike's.. When he sang Human Nature *crying now* omg, ....... That is why I have yet to listen to that song since he passed. I just can't do it, I can't take it..
Now moving on to the Bad Tour, we had center stage floor seats for that one as well.. Omg when he did Smooth Criminal we died
I was still just a baby practically when "Thriller" premiered, but boy I remember when Billie Jean was played relentlessly on MTV (the older brother and sister never turned it off). Having been born in 1980, I was still pretty young but I actually remember that.
Now I remember when both "Black or White" and "in the Closet" premiered. If memory serves, FOUR NETWORKS (FOX, MTV, VH-1, and BET) all premiered them simultaneously. I mean, they were BIG. The networks promoted the hell out of both of them. I thought BOW was a masterpiece and ITC, well, I was only 12 or 13 at the time and didn't really appreciate Michael's hotness quite yet back then, but I remember the disclaimer in the beginning and during the video thinking "Should I be watching this?" :lol: Luckily it was a Sunday night, it was my parents' bowling league, and I was up in my room with nobody to tell me to turn it off :lmao:
I hope like hell that his estate releases the Tours on DVD
My sentiments exactly. It should have been done a long time ago.
i got some flack yesterday for grieving mikey. it hurt me so deeply.
they were like, 'i don't think it's healthy how you're taking this' so i got very upset. if only they could see the thousands that are just as hurt. and we are not crazy. people are so mean. :no: just because mike meant nothing to them. can't believe i have to take shit just because i'm sad someone i cared about passed away.
:hug: I know how it feels. That's why I don't bother. None of my friends really knew just how much I liked him anyway. My mom understands a little more but I think she's even getting tired of it. A couple weeks ago "I Just Can't Stop Loving You" started playing in a restaurant and I wanted to break down. My mom saw I was upset but didn't say anything. She just gave me this look as to say "Oh give me an effing break already."
Nobody understands. I'm not only struggling over his death but all of the things I'm feeling that comes along with it. The pain, the agony, the guilt that I feel for doubting him during the trial and for taking him for granted all those years. I hate myself for that. I feel like I turned my back on him. I knew in my heart he wasn't guilty, but I let all the media get to me anyway. Maybe that was because I was going through some crazy stuff myself at that time and just had a crappy attitude overall, I dunno. I had always considered myself a fan, but I wasn't fanatical about it, you know? I have all his albums and that's about it though. All these years I just figured Michael would always be around, thought nothing of it. His death made me realize just how much he meant to me. I should have realized this a long time ago. I sometimes feel like I don't even belong here. I see all of you loyal devoted fans, and then there's me. I know fans come in all different varieties, but damn, I dunno. It just feels weird. Maybe that just ties into the guilt.
Sorry, London, I meant to comfort you and I ended up turning it into about me. My main point is that I know how it feels. That's why it's easier for me to do what I need to do to get through this in private.
I'll take the bacon and croissant with a double helping of Michael
I don't trust Joe one bit and having listened to the MJ phone convos it's obvious all was not well in their relationship and he's always askin Michael for money! He wants to seem like they were close but he's just lovin the attention.
Joe talks too effing much. Obviously he just wants camera time. I was so angry with him the way he behaved at the BET Awards.
Boy, I'm getting this multi-quote thing down pat. It still feels like it took me hours to make this post *whipes brow*
