feeling traumatized

[angelofhope]

Hello everyone
feeling traumatised from what I have been reading about the trial. I have not been watching it on t.v anymore as I explained in one of my other threads and only catch bits on the news and in the paper too but feel so angry and grief stricken all over again. To think Michael could have lived just rips my heart out. I wish I had the luxury of being emotionally detached like other non fans but I am truly disturbed by what I have seen and read about the horrendeous way Michael suffered and how Conrad Murray killed him in cold blood.
It has shocked me to the core.

 

[StaceyMJ]

I know...its really quite hard to even comprehend what Murray did to Michael, just absolutely disgusting and awful to know he was capable of doing that to our beloved Michael. I'm honestly feeling as bad as I did in the summer of 09...its really bought it all back.

I wish there was something I could do to make all this go away... just please know you're not alone x

 

[soulmum]

You are definitely not alone. Sending a hug, we will get through this together and (pray God) we will see justice being done.

 

[MJsBollywoodGirl7]

I know exactly how you feel. I am still just so horrified, upset, sicken, and shock by that one picture of Michael. All day long I had reaaly tried to get that horrible image of Michael out of my head. By either watching non news programs, reading more of the Left Behind series, playing with my Nintendo Wii, and playing with my computer game Sims Medieval. But nothing has worked for me.:sad: That picture is like really burn in to my mind. And I only saw that picture for 2 seconds. Because I decided to watch a part of Inside Edition late last night. I had gotten very little sleep last night. Cause of my insomnia that Dr. Death has cause me to have now. And I was up rest of the night just crying on and off over Michael. And what that evil murdering monster did to him. And it was just 30 minutes or so ago where I really broke down over him again. I can tell you one thing that evil monster should be very lucky I am not in Los Angeles right now. Because I seriously will do to him to what he did to my beloved Michael.:sad: :boohoo: :mat: I just thank the good Lord that I did not hear those recordings. I really don't know what that would do to me if I ever hear those recordings.:sad: :boohoo: I haven't felt like this since I first heard that horrible news about Michael. When I think back to that first month without him where I had lost over 40 probably close to 50 pounds. Because eating was the very last thing I had wanted to do. I just wanted to stay in my MJ shrine bedroom and sleep. And the way I am feeling now was the way I had felt then. And I think I just might be going back to that way again.:sad: :boohoo:

 

[Daryll748]

Keep your head up, angelofinnocence :better:
I feel like that too... Everything is back at square one... ARGH, the snapping, the crying, the insomnia, the nightmares... :blink:
Please don't tell me this is gonna be for a month hey... My poor family and friends, my heart :no: