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How often do you get 'those moments' about MJ's death?

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You know the ones I mean. You can listen to his music, watch him on TV, youtube etc and comfortably enjoy what you are watching, and then BAM. You are hit by it, and you are hit with sadness and the realisation that he is no longer with us.

It happens around every other day or so with me. It just happened a few minutes ago. So sad that he never got to share his magic with us - not only the music, but his directing, classical album etc. He had so much left to give.
 
funny you mention it...cause it just happend to me while I was watching Royal Brunei and Munich footage... :( So sad to think that I would've see him already in London (july 16th) Miss him so much.
 
It hit me like a ton of bricks again today when i saw a display of many tribute magazines at the airport. I wish we were paying tribute to Michael because his concerts were doing well, and we were celebrating his talent...instead of this
 
It happens frequently even when I'm watching non-MJ related material. I just take courage and distract myself by thinking of what Michael might be doing right at that moment in heaven. Talking with James Brown? Hanging out with Freddie Mercury? Getting into a fight with Elvis on who's the real King? LOL Try it, it helps! :)
 
It happened to me just last night.....I was watching the HISTORY concert from Helsinki and also the Memorial.....you think you're somewhat over the hysterical phase but it just takes one little thing to push your emotions in gear again. Its just so damn sad, right now I'm at the anger stage right now (hence I've stopped watching the news reports 'cause they are pissing me off big time!)
 
Yes :( it's been happening to me for awhile. For a week after his death, I cried almost nonstop, but now it is just those random moments where it hits me and it hurts so much knowing he's not here!!! :(
 
Almost daily for me. I welled up again this eveing watching Will You Be There. Don't think I'll ever get over it fully. :(
 
It hits me at least once or twice a day now.

It hits me when my friends make a tail-end joke about MJ being dead with me around.

It hit me last night when I decided to watch the Private Home Movies on the section where Elizabeth gives him the elephant, Gypsy, as a gift. Just looking at the smile on his face, the utter joy illuminating from his eyes, it made me tear up right there knowing i'd never get to see another face like that again.

He had a one of a kind smile, and I don't think it could ever be replicated. I miss it too much sometimes it's overwhelming still.
 
Hmm yeah I think I get what you mean. The moment he died I cried, that was the only time I have EVER cried other than being hurt. Now, whenever I hear one of his emotional songs, I get the shivers. I HATE this. :(
 
cant watch listen to him.everyday is a nightmare i could quite happily go to sleep myself and never wake up


ive had a really shit day today. i worked at a party in the park concert with standard crappy talentless acts and 12 year olds screaming over JLS. im stood there with my heart in bits knowing mj is gone and seeing these kids who are never gonna expericence mj and then i hear some act (dont know who it was) giving a shout out to mj. and i could have burst into tears on the spot. felt like that most of the day. seeing a big stage and ppl going into a concert hurt like hell its so painful and frankly i dont know how the hell ill ever get over it. everything is so pointless right now .the pain of losing him and the circumstances ontop of knowing he should be doing these shows its killed a part of me.
 
this happens to me almost evertime i see or hear MJ talked about, or hear his music
i get all emotional and well up---i have been a MJ fan for a long long time i will be 50 this november so u think i should know better by now......

it is just a loss to my youth i guess....
 
elusive moonwalker said:
cant watch listen to him.everyday is a nightmare i could quite happily go to sleep myself and never wake up


ive had a really shit day today. i worked at a party in the park concert with standard crappy talentless acts and 12 year olds screaming over JLS. im stood there with my heart in bits knowing mj is gone and seeing these kids who are never gonna expericence mj and then i hear some act (dont know who it was) giving a shout out to mj. and i could have burst into tears on the spot. felt like that most of the day. seeing a big stage and ppl going into a concert hurt like hell its so painful and frankly i dont know how the hell ill ever get over it. everything is so pointless right now .the pain of losing him and the circumstances ontop of knowing he should be doing these shows its killed a part of me.
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oh god elusive i know how you feel :(

i thought it would get easier but when it starts to sink in it gets harder. i just cant believe it. am just totally lost. ive been a fan of MJ for 15 years now and its always been a constant strugle for me not to get "too obsessed" and try and get on with my life etc. by this i mean, i could happily just think about MJ all day every day but ive really had to try hard to control this!... but this has hit me like a tonne of bricks. i dont see a way around this feeling of hurt everyday
 
it happens in random bursts for me. I've been listening to his music nonstop and watching his videos so much that i oversaturate myself so as to forget, just appreciate it. Then I'll see something that says RIP or 1958-2009 and i just burst into tears. It's seeing the DATES that confirm it for me, it's over.
 
i didnt cry until the day after when he died. it really hit me then. i get those moments all the time. i can't stop watching videos of him, especially his interviews or when he is being himself. it hits me most when i see that kindness in him that he always showed, and that glowing smile he had. i've never cried for the death of someone ever, not even family members, until michael's passing.
 
I get this "moment" every single day. And I don't think it is gonna go away any time soon.

Everytime I pray to God and read my bible, I see Michael up there with God. He was a part of my life in the flesh and now he is a part of my life in the spirit.
 
happens to me all the time, even with things that remind me of him-and nowadays everything reminds me of him.

Today I went to Chinatown in S.f. and they had some cute statue of children sitting on a bench and it reminded me of the stuff Michael had at Neverland. :(
 
I just have this sense of emptyness inside. A hole that will never be filled.
 
It still happens several times every day. And not just if I hear MJs music. Anything which reminds me of him, death or whatever.
 
I had a rather big episode yesterday. I was listening to the radio and the announcer said that at a local park they were going to be showing " 'The Wiz', starring Michael Jackson and Diana Ross." Just him saying his name hit me right in the gut. I kept repeating to myself, "Michael's gone. Michael's gone. Michael's gone."

For the entire evening I felt awful, just lousy. I hadn't reacted that way in a couple weeks (and there I was thinking that I had basically made peace with it).
 
Ugh. Everyday. Thanks for creating this thread, I always need that reminder that I'm not alone.
I'll be listening to a great tune on my iPod or re-watching a DVD and then it'll just hit me. For those few moments that I'm watching him or listening to him, everything seems alright in the world. I'm enjoying myself. I feel like he's still here. Then when reality hits... I just get so depressed all over again.
 
Well i recieved tickets for the o2 last week, as i pulled them out the envelope i saw "Michael" and my heart rate went through the roof. i then saw "McIntyre" and rememberd
 
I got one of those moments right now. I'm listening to Someone in the Dark and I've got a squeezing feeling in my chest. :cry:
 
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