This is exactly it. I’m on the MJ twitter community, which is huge some people and there’s many that know about the forum. I think they just prefer not to be on a forum (I understand the format isn’t for everyone). I’m sure there’s ones that don’t know about it (most likely the very younger ones) but I haven’t come across anyone that doesn’t. I forgot how I heard about this forum honestly it could’ve been twitter, tumblr, or I just came across it because I’m obsessed and Google about this man every day
but I never went on it but I think there was a tweet about the forum or a tweet from the forum that made made me eventually take a look and I made an account in March.
I don’t come on here often, but when I do it’s probably for a few minutes lol I always feel a sense of tranquil when I come on. It’s a much better environment. MJ twitter is just full of drama: There’s a fight about everything if it’s not about music opinions, it’s about the allegations (which is triggering for me), or his personal life, or something a fan has said and it’s like my goodness
I’m convinced it’s because they’re kids (sorry if that word offends any teens here) because it’s always minors that have that behavior. I’ve been looking for a better MJ community. Twitter and instagram aren’t the greatest communities. I wanted a community that felt as safe as the tumblr community I was in around 2011 (it died in like 2014 or something) but I kind of gave up hope lol then I finally came on here and it made me so happy because I really, really wanted a healthy mj fan environment that made me feel safe. I always say that one day I’m going to leave the mj twitter community and stay on here lol
I understand completely! I do have Twitter, but do not really use it at all personally. I started checking it out again recently solely for Michael related content, which is fun sometimes, but also annoying for the reasons you described. I will say, I am happy there are young people who go to bat SO hard for Michael. I also think there is something adorable about teenagers being in love with him lol. But I agree... I don't think Twitter, Instagram, or TikTok are the greatest communities, even though I think they are doing great things for his legacy. It's just important to remind myself sometimes that these are largely very young people and those platforms are more for them than for me (I'm in my early 30s). That helps me feel less annoyed lol.
This community however is just lovely. It feels so much more mature. There are serious discussions, great personalities, and people wanting to and willing to think deeply about Michael. Personally, I have not had a negative experience on here yet. So I think if it makes you feel tranquil, you should totally indulge in this one
Oh, btw, I also Google Michael almost daily too lol. But sometimes I avoid it because one of the toughest things about being a Michael fan is sorting through the garbage and lies about him and discovering what is actually true. I don't think anyone has ever been used for clout as often as him -- how many people have made entire careers, or reached fame, solely because of what they say about him? It's crazy.
It’s okay to talk about it (from what I gather). I’m sorry to hear that you went through that. I also experienced sexual abuse (I’m a CSA victim, but it’s happened in my teen years also) and it’s not easy to cope with.
It’s actually nice to hear someone say he was their first sexual experience because I feel like I can relate to someone because he was my sexual awakening but I didn’t tell anyone because I thought they would think it’s comical. I was trying to figure out my sexuality when I was a kid. I knew I loved women, but very seldom I liked men. I assume my lack of attraction at the time may’ve been because of my past, but then I found Michael and WOW. Then I found the mj tumblr community with what we used to call mj pervs (all of you remind me of them LOL) and that was something else
we were just like this thread and I think it was a good experience mentally because it helped me explore my sexuality more and figure myself out because I was almost convinced I mayve been lesbian lmao
Well first, I am so sorry that you are a CSA victim and that your experiences were ongoing. That is terrible. I can only imagine how triggering this community can be for you sometimes. You are not the first person I've met who described their sexual awakening with Michael in that way, though (including the questions about sexuality!). That is so fascinating....also I have definitely heard the MJ Perv term and I don't even care. I'm definitely one lol. The only thing I take issue with is if people manipulate photos of him (which I've seen in some "perv" spaces)... that is totally unnecessary because he was fucking perfect already lol. I don't know why you'd want him to be anything other than what he was!
I do want to clarify a couple things though - I am not a CSA survivor. But for the first decade of my adulthood I was heavily abused in some ongoing and extreme ways. I don't want to get into it (I already feel bad bringing it into such a sexy, wonderful thread!). But I want to just clarify that my Michael love is very recent (Jan of this year) and definitely not my first sexual anything... I guess what I'm saying is that for a very long time I had a very twisted mindset around sex and men etc. Years of therapy and a wonderful relationship later, I am much, much better. But I am still in the process of rediscovering my sexuality as an individual. Sexuality for me was very...
extreme for a long time. So I think being SO awakened by this sexual attraction to this man, who was never explicit or vulgar, but who was incredibly sensual and erotic while also being incredibly gentle and kind... it's been rewriting some of the sexual scripts in my brain and resulted in a lot of fantasy, which had been wildly fun, private, and in that way healing.
GOD THIS IS HEAVY. Ugh lol.
I'm so sorry everyone! @divinity in motion ♡ if you ever want to chat about this privately more we totally can! Not that you can't reply to this here, I just don't want to bring down the mood haha.