Lark
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Hi Everyone, I have no idea how to start so I will follow the example of my fellow new member and tel you about how I ended up here...
When I was a little girl, I loved Michael. I only have a few memories of this, but I did dress up as him for some event at a summer day camp, and I still have a journal entry I wrote when I was six about wanting to meet him. That same year I saw him sing Heal The World at the Superbowl on TV. I did not understand the lyrics or really hear what the singers were saying, but I loved Will You Be There, although I have never seen Free Willy. In the summer on 95, I listened to nothing but History and The Lion King.
But I grew up in a very cynical family, and I never fit in with them. Everything I wore, said, thought, or did was criticized since I can remember. Michael stopped being a part of my world, and I never read tabloids and or watched the news. When he passed away I was shocked, as everybody was, but I pretty much went on with my life. I couldn't afford a TV at the time and was working the day of the memorial, and that was that.
In July of this year I saw the Cirque Tribute show. Obviously it was fantastic, and I went home thinking "I forgot how much I loved his music!" After a few days, I searched some songs on youtube. I kept doing this for a couple of days, until one night I went to bed and just started to cry. I was thinking, as a grown woman "What is wrong with you? You never knew him" but I felt like there was a smaller me bubbling up inside that I had been ignoring for a long time, and that smaller me DID know him.
I think that Michael's music speaks to the child in me that I left behind because I wanted to fit in. It was only after this happened that I found out how much he loved children and wanted to help people-- I honestly had no idea. Never knew anything about who he really was. I knew about Heal The World (the song, not the foundation), but that was it. I wish I had known. He is such a role model for how to be strong, without being hard.
Sorry to go on so long, but I have not spoken about this to anyone. I guess it really is easier to pour your heart out on a keyboard to strangers then it is to talk to people you know in person. I wanted to reach out to some fans because I find it hard to relate to people in my life who like his music, but don't know how to feel about him.
When I listened to Will You Be There again as an adult, I was amazed that it still speaks to me on so many levels, and still it spoke to me when I was too small to understand why.
Edit: I was trying to keep it short, but never got to the point which is that I have done a lot of soul searching in the past few months and now I just want to live his message, and make sure everything I do is with the L.O.V.E.! I am hoping to find some other like-minded fans on here.
Lark
When I was a little girl, I loved Michael. I only have a few memories of this, but I did dress up as him for some event at a summer day camp, and I still have a journal entry I wrote when I was six about wanting to meet him. That same year I saw him sing Heal The World at the Superbowl on TV. I did not understand the lyrics or really hear what the singers were saying, but I loved Will You Be There, although I have never seen Free Willy. In the summer on 95, I listened to nothing but History and The Lion King.
But I grew up in a very cynical family, and I never fit in with them. Everything I wore, said, thought, or did was criticized since I can remember. Michael stopped being a part of my world, and I never read tabloids and or watched the news. When he passed away I was shocked, as everybody was, but I pretty much went on with my life. I couldn't afford a TV at the time and was working the day of the memorial, and that was that.
In July of this year I saw the Cirque Tribute show. Obviously it was fantastic, and I went home thinking "I forgot how much I loved his music!" After a few days, I searched some songs on youtube. I kept doing this for a couple of days, until one night I went to bed and just started to cry. I was thinking, as a grown woman "What is wrong with you? You never knew him" but I felt like there was a smaller me bubbling up inside that I had been ignoring for a long time, and that smaller me DID know him.
I think that Michael's music speaks to the child in me that I left behind because I wanted to fit in. It was only after this happened that I found out how much he loved children and wanted to help people-- I honestly had no idea. Never knew anything about who he really was. I knew about Heal The World (the song, not the foundation), but that was it. I wish I had known. He is such a role model for how to be strong, without being hard.
Sorry to go on so long, but I have not spoken about this to anyone. I guess it really is easier to pour your heart out on a keyboard to strangers then it is to talk to people you know in person. I wanted to reach out to some fans because I find it hard to relate to people in my life who like his music, but don't know how to feel about him.
When I listened to Will You Be There again as an adult, I was amazed that it still speaks to me on so many levels, and still it spoke to me when I was too small to understand why.
Edit: I was trying to keep it short, but never got to the point which is that I have done a lot of soul searching in the past few months and now I just want to live his message, and make sure everything I do is with the L.O.V.E.! I am hoping to find some other like-minded fans on here.
Lark
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