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...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
 
Mrs. Music said:
...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
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I feel the same way *hugs* to you :hug:
 
Mrs. Music said:
...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
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I know exactly how you feel, and I feel the same way. This is going to be a long, and dark winter. To be truthful I have no idea how I'm going to get through it.
 
'Good' to know you guys feel the same... :cry:

It's just so hard, I feel like I'm holding on to a very little rope...you know.
Can't stop playing his music, I don't even listen to ANY other music. It just doesn't mean anything for me right now.:scratch:
Don't want to change and let go.
 
Awwwww please... it's the concept of life... things do belong together and it makes sense and there's beauty in everything.

Summer means one can push friends into a pool, means camp fires, means open air concerts, means sleeping outside and watch the stars with someone you love.

Fall means that leaves get the most amazing uncountable colors one can imagine. Means playing around with throwing leaves on eachother. Means planting flowers and means cherishing all those last sun rays.

Winter means snow, means snowballfights, means snowmen, means cold what makes it so nice to snuggle with a friend under a nice warm blanket and enjoy a hot chocolate together.

And spring is so so so endlessly beautiful only cuz of all the plants and trees and flowers coming to life again after sleeping in winter... the first warming sun rays, the first time going out without scarf and gloves.


Please I do not deny there's something unpleasant and/or bad probably in every season also... but things belong together... there is no love without pain. You will not find it in this life. Ask yourself it you want to pay the price.
Anyone wants to live without love for then also not having to live with pain anymore?

Things do belong together believe me... just try to give the positive in life a chance again.
If Michaels love does make ppl only suffer and bitter in the end, then there's something wrong.
It should make us proud, happy, loving and giving then we do keep his legacy I think.

The sense of love existing in this life is because it is giving a hold, it is giving comfort... but it seems some of us need to learn to love again, some need to find their faith in love again.
We will never find anything perfect in this life, the more we idolize stuff or ppl, the less we love because love means to know about mistakes and weaknesses but to focus and cherish the good.

Michael Jackson loved his fans like crazy but do you guys think one of us is perfect? lol nope... not a single one.

We have to find the love back at least give it a chance... try to find something nice in every day.
 
I know how you feel. It should be getting easier day by day but it just gets harder. I'm scared of what could happen if this gets worse. I don't want to think about being without him all the rest of my life.
 
Mechi, you're completely right.:)
It's not just the seasons that change cuz I love all seasons but it's the feeling that I have now and it's hard to imagine being in fall and so many months have passed already. I'ts time that's flying so fast.

I can see and still feel the love, I feel Mike is near and my dreams and little things that he's doing from above make me feel the love. There is indeed no love without pain....I know how to handle pain and to get something positive out of everything, been there before, but it's just so...SO hard to imagine that so many time will pass. That this world will change without him being here. That people are going further....these changes are making it so difficult.
This is all going way to fast, I can't even get used to the idea that he won't be on this earth never ever anymore.:mello:
 
Mechi said:
Awwwww please... it's the concept of life... things do belong together and it makes sense and there's beauty in everything.

Summer means one can push friends into a pool, means camp fires, means open air concerts, means sleeping outside and watch the stars with someone you love.

Fall means that leaves get the most amazing uncountable colors one can imagine. Means playing around with throwing leaves on eachother. Means planting flowers and means cherishing all those last sun rays.

Winter means snow, means snowballfights, means snowmen, means cold what makes it so nice to snuggle with a friend under a nice warm blanket and enjoy a hot chocolate together.

And spring is so so so endlessly beautiful only cuz of all the plants and trees and flowers coming to life again after sleeping in winter... the first warming sun rays, the first time going out without scarf and gloves.


Please I do not deny there's something unpleasant and/or bad probably in every season also... but things belong together... there is no love without pain. You will not find it in this life. Ask yourself it you want to pay the price.
Anyone wants to live without love for then also not having to live with pain anymore?

Things do belong together believe me... just try to give the positive in life a chance again.
If Michaels love does make ppl only suffer and bitter in the end, then there's something wrong.
It should make us proud, happy, loving and giving then we do keep his legacy I think.

The sense of love existing in this life is because it is giving a hold, it is giving comfort... but it seems some of us need to learn to love again, some need to find their faith in love again.
We will never find anything perfect in this life, the more we idolize stuff or ppl, the less we love because love means to know about mistakes and weaknesses but to focus and cherish the good.

Michael Jackson loved his fans like crazy but do you guys think one of us is perfect? lol nope... not a single one.

We have to find the love back at least give it a chance... try to find something nice in every day.
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Mechi I understand what you say......but with the pain that's blinding some of us it's not easy to see the good things. I'm a Leo, which means I come alive in the spring and summer months and tend to hide away and be depressed during the winter. It's in my nature.

Now, there has been a lot going on with me personally which I do not wish to go into, but as much trouble as I normally already have to just 'be alive' and try to be as normal as possible during winters, I can honestly say that I do not know if I will get through this one.
 
Mrs. Music said:
...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
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I pretty much am the same way. Just like last night I am crying over Michael again. I still tend to have trouble at times that Michael is really gone. I tend to think about Michael all of the time now. Every single thing I do now causes me to think about Michael. Which is probably why I am back not eating again. Cause I can't even make myself something to eat without making me think about Michael. Cause I will just start crying so much that I have to leave the kitchen. And just forget about eating. And just chew a piece of gum instead. For some reason gum tends to fill me up now. I would think after all this time it will get easier for me. But it hasn't it is like I am back to the way I was before. When I first had heard the horrible news.
 
Dutchie said:
Mechi I understand what you say......but with the pain that's blinding some of us it's not easy to see the good things. I'm a Leo, which means I come alive in the spring and summer months and tend to hide away and be depressed during the winter. It's in my nature.

Now, there has been a lot going on with me personally which I do not wish to go into, but as much trouble as I normally already have to just 'be alive' and try to be as normal as possible during winters, I can honestly say that I do not know if I will get through this one.
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I'm the same way, although I think every season has it's beauty, I feel so miserable in winter. It's in my nature too, can't help it. So it indeed is hard already to live 'normal', but we must.
After all, all the pain will get it's own place and you have to carry on to live your legacy. I am very ambitious, and that's what always kept me going in life.
Hugs to you! :hug:
 
Mrs. Music said:
...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
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I feel the same way too.
 
Mrs. Music said:
This is all going way to fast, I can't even get used to the idea that he won't be on this earth never ever anymore.:mello:
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It takes as long as it takes. It's not going too fast as you can take all the time you need. Who or what makes you believe differently really. Do not let anyone or anything tell you. See that life goes on is maybe only meant for comfort that life tries to signalize you it goes on even when you need to take a time out. Life signalizes you, just take your time, when you will be back again all will be still ok and all will be still here.
And no it's not easy... of cuz it's not easy... but please just do not lose faith... because it is possible to go through it.

Life just means changes. Michael loved life so much. He had a huge understanding for it. And life does mean also pain and death, that's all part of it. So everyone should take their time for it.
Yes it's the change of seasons, it's an end and a new beginning, always... that is life.

And you know what's also life to me... on the other hand I do feel Michael is so around here! That's why he loved his fans so much, he has put all in ppl or better especially in us. The love is still here! Love, creation... that is what can make someone living forever through all changes.
I know Michael is proud of us, how we are there for eachother, how we try to give eachother loving comfort... his spirit obviously lives on in many so sweet so beautiful ppl posting here.
And yes Michael has also a lot of understanding for everyone in sorrow and/or pain. As I said there is a time for everything. But he is still very much himself and I have a sense for that he of cuz still prefers to see ppl happy and enjoying life... still he knows how to give things time... now he knows even more and even better.
Sometimes I even seem to hear him giggeling when around here on this forum, as when he's looking over my shoulder and reading what I'm typing and I hear him laughing: 'oh geeeez girl are you crazy??? I was never that beautiful or that crazy.'

Just start to have faith again and do not deny this possibility to yourself. He truely is with everyone of us and he does enjoy it because now he is able to be with each and everyone of us. Open your heart and I'm sure you all will feel exactly that.

I mean come on, yes he passed away, his physical appearance is gone.
Then again count the ppl here he was physically with before and you'll see easily what's important about Michael Jackson has truely never left us.

Have faith! Please allow yourself to feel the comfort in this love again!
We had him in our life. He has put so much in us, his happiness, his understanding sensitivity, his sorrow, his faith, his pride, his love!
Many many ppl will not even have the chance anymore.
Let's make Michael proud of us and this way also of himself because I want him to see what he has left and I want him to have this beautiful proud and happy smile on his face! gosh that was always the sweetest somehow, wasn't it?!:smilerolleyes:
 
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Dutchie said:
Mechi I understand what you say......but with the pain that's blinding some of us it's not easy to see the good things. I'm a Leo, which means I come alive in the spring and summer months and tend to hide away and be depressed during the winter. It's in my nature.

Now, there has been a lot going on with me personally which I do not wish to go into, but as much trouble as I normally already have to just 'be alive' and try to be as normal as possible during winters, I can honestly say that I do not know if I will get through this one.
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And this is a bit what I mean, you need to take care of yourself even though in sorrow, even though in pain. If things get too much there is always help available, then please look for it.

I am in counceling myself and it helps me tremendously. When I didn't know what to do and only pain was left and I couldn't controll my mind anymore... how to stop all the craziest thoughts and that... I asked for help. I went to my family doc and asked what I can do about it. He knows me for years and he knew a psychologist perfect for me... honestly we even had fun in some of these appointments already. It's not only crying, it's not that she finds out things about me I don't wanna know... it is just a tremendous help of someone understanding grief and pain.... and way a bit used to sort craziest thoughts. lol

If you're worried about maybe not being able to go through this winter then you have that thought for a reason. Someone wants you to go for help... please do so. please!
 
Mechi said:
It takes as long as it takes. It's not going too fast as you can take all the time you need. Who or what makes you believe differently really. Do not let anyone or anything tell you. See that life goes on is maybe only meant for comfort that life tries to signalize you it goes on even when you need to take a time out. Life signalizes you, just take your time, when you will be back again all will be still ok and all will be still here.
And no it's not easy... of cuz it's not easy... but please just do not lose faith... because it is possible to go through it.

Life just means changes. Michael loved life so much. He had a huge understanding for it. And life does mean also pain and death, that's all part of it. So everyone should take their time for it.
Yes it's the change of seasons, it's an end and a new beginning, always... that is life.

And you know what's also life to me... on the other hand I do feel Michael is so around here! That's why he loved his fans so much, he has put all in ppl or better especially in us. The love is still here! Love, creation... that is what can make someone living forever through all changes.
I know Michael is proud of us, how we are there for eachother, how we try to give eachother loving comfort... his spirit obviously lives on in many so sweet so beautiful ppl posting here.
And yes Michael has also a lot of understanding for everyone in sorrow and/or pain. As I said there is a time for everything. But he is still very much himself and I have a sense for that he of cuz still prefers to see ppl happy and enjoying life... still he knows how to give things time... now he knows even more and even better.
Sometimes I even seem to hear him giggeling when around here on this forum, as when he's looking over my shoulder and reading what I'm typing and I hear him laughing: 'oh geeeez girl are you crazy??? I was never that beautiful or that crazy.'

Just start to have faith again and do not deny this possibility to yourself. He truely is with everyone of us and he does enjoy it because now he is able to be with each and everyone of us. Open your heart and I'm sure you all will feel exactly that.

I mean come on, yes he passed away, his physical appearance is gone.
Then again count the ppl here he was physically with before and you'll see easily what's important about Michael Jackson has truely never left us.

Have faith! Please allow yourself to feel the comfort in this love again!
We had him in our life. He has put so much in us, his happiness, his understanding sensitivity, his sorrow, his faith, his pride, his love!
Many many ppl will not even have the chance anymore.
Let's make Michael proud of us and this way also of himself because I want him to see what he has left and I want him to have this beautiful proud and happy smile on his face! gosh that was always the sweetest somehow, wasn't it?!:smilerolleyes:
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You're completely right...I could've written that myself.:yes:
I feel Michael near me, I know for sure he's here and I've been experiencing some stuff (see physician-thread). I won't lose faith and we indeed need to let him smile from above. I know he wouldn't want us to be in so much pain for him, but it's hard not to go there when you see this miserable world and the factor that tried to heal it has been passed away.
But you know what, he can do even more now in the place he is. He's in the nature, he's everywhere, he has finally found his peace.
We have to be his army of love, and I will be. But then again, it's just not fair he's taken away like this. I'm just very sensitive and can compare myself so much to him.
I wish we could change this entire world in one that's healed, in one that's loved... :cry:
 
Mrs. Music said:
I wish we could change this entire world in one that's healed, in one that's loved... :cry:
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Open your eyes Mrs. Music and even more important open your heart... can't you see...
Honestly and sincerly from my heart, you did heal my world today to a good part. Your posts are beautiful. Thank you so much.
Do not underestimate your power and possibilities!
 
Mrs. Music said:
...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
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Oh, I hear you. Last Saturday it rained here, torrentially -- a cold rain Seemed like the rain would never stop. I had people over for dinner and hoped we could eat outside on my deck. Wasn't possible, though. It was different sort of evening than I'd planned, but warm and comfortable, indoors. Now, a cold-front has come through and it's cool, brisk, and windy. Very different from "that day" in summer. It's not getting easier, but it IS getting different. More in perspective, somehow? Sometimes? Grief is a permanent condition, but there are bright moments. We have to recognize these when they come? My heart has been wounded, and I'll have to learn to live with this, because I'm still HERE. Yesterday I took in the rest of my garden harvest. I will do some cooking, and life goes on. . . . .

I still can't listen to his music, but maybe someday? I think that one reason this isn't getting better, for some, is his constant presence. By that I mean on television, on the radio, on magazine covers. I've lost both my parents and grief was dealt with "normally." I didn't have to see them in motion on my tv screen, or see their pictures everyday, somewhere. I could achieve a kind of closure. But. . not with Michael. His image is everywhere, and that makes it much harder to move on.

Last summer, end of June, I was sitting in my kitchen, looking out the open backdoor onto the trees in my yard. It was hot, and I was contented. Now, the leaves are turning color, but back then the leaves were green. I was checking the board, when I saw the first news of the TMZ report. From that first report, I already KNEW/sensed, that this was the end. Don't know how I knew?. . that ambulance could have been for anyone. . there were many people in that house. But I KNEW. It was like the sunny day had already dimmed. Then. . the world shifted. I made two important and horrific phone calls. A few family members called me with condolences. I could barely speak. I sat up at my computer, nearly all night. I kept thinking. . the FANS. I had to do something to help. Helping other people, helped ME, too. Nothing has been the same since then. I remember every moment, every detail, of that hot summer day and night.

It's been only three months. It seems like yesterday and simultaneously, feels like a LONG time already. The season's change makes him seem far away, to me, too. But yet. . . not. It's a weird dysjuncture. Time has stopped and remains stuck in the morning of June 25, and yet it advances, too, especially evident with the change in seasons. I can only imagine what the "first anniversary" will be like?

I will say, Mechi is an inspiration for me. She has survived TWO terrible losses, close together. If she can make it through. . so can WE.

hugs, everyone,

Vic
 
I still love the rain and the thunderstorms. It's the only thing that describes how I feel as of lately. It's like when it rains, I feel like I can get rid of everything. I'm still hurting but the rain feels like for a second it washes the pain away. I still don't feel like it's been 3 months. I feel like I missed on a huge part of summer, it's all just starting to blend together, so I get what you mean.
I'm also dealing with another family crisis which is being all a bit too much for me. It's something I wish wouldn't happen because I'm not ready to deal with possibly losing someone again. I'm still not over Michael, I can't stand the fact that everything seems to be leaving me
 
Mechi said:
Open your eyes Mrs. Music and even more important open your heart... can't you see...
Honestly and sincerly from my heart, you did heal my world today to a good part. Your posts are beautiful. Thank you so much.
Do not underestimate your power and possibilities!
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Aw, that's so sweet of you to say! :cry: I will not underestimate, thanks for the lovely words.
Hug to you! :hug:
 
Mrs. Music said:
...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
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.........Awwwwww,feel the same,miss Michael SO Much,my sweet angel:no:
Still cant belive this all happenend,cant accept,cant let him go and dont want to,Michael is part of me and always will:yes::wub:

(((((((((((((((warm hug)))))))))))) PM me if you need to talk,'m dutch also,I also have hyves/msn etc;)
 
Mrs. Music said:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.
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For some fall and winter are an invitation to sadness, even though there's so much beauty to experience. Coming to terms with Michaels passing doesn't mean you'll lose him, or lose the experiences you've had. It's allowing yourself to move on that will make it possible for you to experience the beauty in life again. Allow yourself to go there, it doesn't mean you will forget about Michael! He will always be in your heart. You are one of the lucky ones who was able to enjoy and be inspired by him while he was still with us, and now those experiences can empower you to heal the world in your own way. You have that strength within you, just allow yourself to let it surface. Michael would want nothing more then to see you bloom in life, inspired by his message of love. You can do it, just have a little faith in yourself :better:

@ Mechi, you're a true inspiration, thank you for sharing your experiences :better:
 
Experience the magic said:
For some fall and winter are an invitation to sadness, even though there's so much beauty to experience. Coming to terms with Michaels passing doesn't mean you'll lose him, or lose the experiences you've had. It's allowing yourself to move on that will make it possible for you to experience the beauty in life again. Allow yourself to go there, it doesn't mean you will forget about Michael! He will always be in your heart. You are one of the lucky ones who was able to enjoy and be inspired by him while he was still with us, and now those experiences can empower you to heal the world in your own way. You have that strength within you, just allow yourself to let it surface. Michael would want nothing more then to see you bloom in life, inspired by his message of love. You can do it, just have a little faith in yourself :better:

@ Mechi, you're a true inspiration, thank you for sharing your experiences :better:
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Aw....lovely and very true words! :cry: I will do that. Thankyou. :hug:
 
yes I understand what you mean...
Halloween will be hard without Michael. He LOVED halloween
Christmas will not be the same :(
Its getting colder out and im just missing Michael so much !!
 
I still feel like summer didn't happen. I'm still stuck in June :no:
 
Oh gosh...I feel all your pain too. Time's ticking on, and it makes him seem further away to me. I can't imagine a time when this still doesn't feel 'new' to me. Accepting it scares me, and I don't know how to do that anyway. I can't see a way forward which scares the living daylights out of me! It's going to be a long cold winter, things are always worse for me in the winter anyway, but this year is even harder as somebody already said. :(
 
StaceyMJ said:
Oh gosh...I feel all your pain too. Time's ticking on, and it makes him seem further away to me. I can't imagine a time when this still doesn't feel 'new' to me. Accepting it scares me, and I don't know how to do that anyway. I can't see a way forward which scares the living daylights out of me! It's going to be a long cold winter, things are always worse for me in the winter anyway, but this year is even harder as somebody already said. :(
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Let's all stick together...we have this place, thank god, and we can always reach out to eachother in other ways!
We gotta get through...:cry:
:hug:
 
Mrs. Music said:
...this is only getting harder. :mello:
I woke up this morning seeing it was still dark and cold, the wind blowed and the rain felt, the days are getting shorter.
I don't want it to change, I don't want it to become autumn and winter....I want it to stay like this.
The environment is changing and I don't want it to. :cry: I want to go back in time, I want to freeze the time and stay there in eternity.

Mike seems to be really far away now...if someone says: it's already 3 months since, I can't believe it. I really can't imagine next year, being it a year ago...:no:
I feel like I'm losing grip when time passes and don't have the time to 'accept' this, for how far I can.
Everything makes me think of him, just ANYTHING. And I am afraid I will lose it, I don't want to move to another state of mind.

Anyone else feeling worse every day and especially with the times changing?

Hugs to y'all... :cry:
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Yes i know what you mean it's been really cold where i am lately and it even makes it worse for me i always hope that Michael knows how much we love him so much :cry: The winter is going to be hard for me now it'll remind me that Michael is gone :(
 
I feel the same way...we just had the first rain of the fall and it's suddenly cold and dreary and it's so depressing. It feels like a harsh reality...time is pressing on even though he's gone...I was expecting time to freeze.
 
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