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Does anyone else still feel like s**t?

amym1958

amym1958

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I dont know, i had a really nice day at the o2 yesterday and i thought itb would allow some kind of "closure" but today i feel awful. im probably the lowest ive been....ive spend the day watching MJ clips and crying. I just dont know what to do with myself xxx
 
I know it's hard. Some might think it would give closure. But I think it just makes things more real. It's only been nearly 3 weeks. It's perfectly normal to still feel so so sad about this. The pain will never go away. I don't like the expression when people tell you that "eventually you'll get over it" because I don't want to get over it. I'm still very sad and cry watching videos and interviews. It's so hard to imagine the reality of it.
 
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Yes I do...I feel physically and emotionally drained. I too went to the o2 yesterday and now it just seems so real. Since I got back this morning I've just moped about on here and not doing much at all. It's getting harder and harder, not easier. :( I'm at a total loss.
 
Do you know when you're a kid and the tree comes down after christmas.....or when you get back from a great holiday.....thats how i feel but a hundred times worse! i feel so empty xx
 
I thought after I let it all out watching the memorial that the catharsis would help me feel better. Instead, every morning I wake up, and for just a moment I don't think of anything. Then, like a tidal wave, I remember that he is gone (physically) and I hope that it was all just a bad dream.
 
Its getting harder and harder for me too..
I miss him more each day :cry:
 
I've come to the conclusion why I still feel like shit, and why this always will be tough.
Michael brought escapism from all the bullshit going in my life, and when he was taken away I suddenly became aware of "reality" again.
 
BruceWayne said:
I've come to the conclusion why I still feel like shit, and why this always will be tough.
Michael brought escapism from all the bullshit going in my life, and when he was taken away I suddenly became aware of "reality" again.
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Yeah, it's like everything is just too real now. :( I honestly can't see that there'll be a time when I'm truly happy again..like I don't know how I will feel like that. I hope there is but I dunno. I have so much respect for people who have had to deal with family members dying and such, I just can't imagine. I feel like just clinging onto my parents and my family and friends. Michael was my role model and inspiration to deal with crap and he always will be that, but omg the world seems dark and cold :(
 
Absolutely every single thing you guys have said is EXACTLY how I'm feeling. :(
I don't know where I'd be without this forum, it's really the only thing keeping me sane and helping me keep faith even though this is the hardest thing ever. To know that every single one of you that has posted in this thread feels the same as me is slightly comforting...even though I would never wish these feelings on anyone. :(
 
yup..its official I still feel like crap just like all of you. We really dont have any answers as too what happened to him, I think this plays a big part of the healing process. Knowing I believe will help us know how. Although we will never understand why.
 
thats very true......................grief etc is a process and you have to got thru all the emotions, as difficult as they are to actually work thru it

i love the prayer at the bottom of your siggy by the way
 
amym1958 said:
I dont know, i had a really nice day at the o2 yesterday and i thought itb would allow some kind of "closure" but today i feel awful. im probably the lowest ive been....ive spend the day watching MJ clips and crying. I just dont know what to do with myself xxx
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I feel the same. Everything's just getting worse somehow. And I can't even bring myself to miss him for real, cause I still can't accept it.
It happens that it all suddenly falls down on me and I break down crying.
Piece by piece I let myself bleed my feelings out and break down, and then I just shut off, becoming all empty and confused, unable to deal with it. I can't take it.
I'm a wreck.
 
As crazy as this may seem i swear it is the truth...ever since the dark 25th,i am having troubles sleeping.
I am sleeping 3 with luck 4 hours per day.
I am exausted,but i when i go to bed even though i am tired,i can't sleep.
have no idea for how long i will go on like this,but i can't care less.What has to happen will happen and i will not do a thing to prevent it.Enough is enough.
 
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