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Kane

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It's been quite a while now since he passed and I keep hearing people say they can finally believe it etc. but I just cant. My mind just refuses to say "He's really gone". I see pictures which say 1958-2009 and I'm just like What? I even watched one of the memorial videos the other day and I just couldn't belive that he was in that coffin. I really cannot get my head around the fact that he's dead. Anybody else feel the same?
 
Even I find it hard to believe at times. Seeing any of the pictures or videos from memorial service is really the hardest for me. I can't bare to see any pictures or videos from the memorial service. Just even thinking about it just makes me cry all over again. I don't even like seeing 1958-2009 together it just doesn't look right. And it is just so very depressing to see that. To me it should be either 1958-Forever like in my signature. Or it should be 1958-Eternity. With it done that way it is not depressing at all.
 
sometimes i get like that too. I forget that he is gone and I have my moments where i go "omg, the day i meet Michael jackson", or when ppl ask me who is my favorite artist or who would i like to meet I say Michael Jackson, like if he WAS alive and get all excited. Then i quickly realize he is gone. And its tough but hey, its life. I just wish this life would have had him longer.
 
dori727 said:
sometimes i get like that too. I forget that he is gone and I have my moments where i go "omg, the day i meet Michael jackson", or when ppl ask me who is my favorite artist or who would i like to meet I say Michael Jackson, like if he WAS alive and get all excited. Then i quickly realize he is gone. And its tough but hey, its life. I just wish this life would have had him longer.
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The only time I can actually forget that Michael is gone is when I am watching him. But other than that I can't seem to forget.
 
I understand..It's hard and unbelievable because to us fans, Michael is immortal..He will never die..When i see all the RIP MJ thing..I was like" Michael is dead? No..It cant be..He is my king..and my king will never die"

Many times, I will comfort myself by thinkin Michael has never left. Sometimes, it hurts so badly that I often chose to live in my own world..a world where I can still hear and see Michael's beautiful smile and laughter.

One thing for sure, I will never let go of his hand. His legacy will live on forever.
 
There are still many moments I can't believe it either. I often refer to him in the present tense, and I my heart jumps a bit every time I see "1958-2009." I can't believe it's almost two months.... :depressed:
 
It's hard to believe for me too and it always will be. I miss him so much!!!
 
I refuse to talk about Michael in the past tense. I want to be able to feel that he's still here with us, but its so hard :( everyday is a struggle not to cry.
 
I am the same. I don't even write "dead" I just write the date. We all know it. I can't write what I don't believe though....and I can't force myself to believe that he's dead. So I just let me be how I am. What I believe won't change whatever the truth is anyways, so it's alright. It's a very strange experience actually. All of it. Maybe it's just that I've not really experienced death other than that of my dog, so it's very foreign to me. Maybe this is a normal way to feel. Plus there is still so much to remind us of him forever.
It's hard to think of him sometimes because I just don't know what to think or feel. I do think he must be more at peace than he had been though.... or really hope for it at least.
 
It crushes my heart looking at posts from years gone by on this forum and seeing people post in present tense rather than past tense about Michael..

:(
 
its heartbreaking and still extremely difficult to believe and accept
 
dealing with death is always a hard one for most people. im the same way, getting my mind around the whole yes he is dead and isnt coming back reality. sometimes reality really sucks
 
i feel the same
sometimes i think like on the background of thinking if you know what i mean "hey guys when are you going to stop talking about his death? it's just so absurd" or even more absurd i feel like adressing a question to Michael "are you going to make a statement about all this mess? this is horrible you need to stop it" this is really crazy i know. but just like a background thought. cause he was always there for us
 
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