MJ Tapes is really worth reading (free fan version without comments from Boteach). It's Michael's words and it's good to know what he thought about certain things.
Thank you, yes, I have that download here somewhere on my computer but I just couldn't have get myself to read it. Partially because the feeling of betrayal toward Michael weighs so grand, that I just haven't been able to.
And I'm not squeamish, reading the coroner's report.
Frequenting this board, I think I already read a lot of quotes throughout many threads.
I also approach this from this way: If I were to meet Michael personally, I would feel that I acquired information about him that I had no business knowing. I simply put myself in his shoes- I simply imagine that Michael would know certain things about me- and that he would have gained that knowledge through a friend that betrayed me. That thought alone makes me highly uncomfortable.
I do know that Michael dictated his own thought in better days- but given the grand scale betrayal even after Michael's death by Boteach- I don't consider Boteach worthy of the privilege of telling the world about Michael.
Michael's actions toward children speak their own language to me- his love and unconditional understanding of children was so immense that he refused to acknowledge the evil in some around him who would turn Michael's gestures of love and understanding into something degenerated.
Unfortunately Boteach has been of the many voices that blasted Michael when he should have been the one to understand. So I consider Boteach the wrong advocate- and my personal curiosity will have to take a back seat.
There are only a few names whom I refuse to read/support: Bob Jones, Halperin, Taraborelli, Boteach, Jaques Peretti.
I don't boycott very easily, but something about Boteach makes me stay far, far away- even if that means missing out on a few extra direct words by Michael.
This impulse also does not stem from some kind of "taking a side" type 'proving loyalty' because I typically am not very receptive to that. (also not stemming from any need to build myself an image of the infallible Saint MJ)
It's just a bad vibe I am getting- by someone who preaches spirituality and good will, yet who continuously bears false witness toward Michael Jackson. It's the bad vibe of hypocrisy that carries a stench I don't want to smell- even if that means I might be missing out on Michael here and there.
Heck, I'll listen to his ex-wives because (no matter the fallout) I to a certain degree I have the feeling they "got" the person they are talking about. With some people I am always left with the feeling that they had the pleasure of knowing him- but that they somehow do not understand who he is.