What are you doing this very second?

Eating, lying in bed with my dog & just enjoying the rare moment of peace and quiet.
 
Right now I am crying. Because I finally did the one thing I have been dreading all day. And that was opening up the presents. And the one present I had open up was the This Is It cd. And the second I had saw that. I had to really fight back those tears of mine. I had to fight them back like 2 or 3 times. Before I just couldn't take it anymore. Because I had open up 4 MJ items of mine. Even though I pretty much knew that I was getting them. So now I am crying just by seeing them again.
 
Right now I am crying. Because I finally did the one thing I have been dreading all day. And that was opening up the presents. And the one present I had open up was the This Is It cd. And the second I had saw that. I had to really fight back those tears of mine. I had to fight them back like 2 or 3 times. Before I just couldn't take it anymore. Because I had open up 4 MJ items of mine. Even though I pretty much knew that I was getting them. So now I am crying just by seeing them again.

aww i got lots of MJ Stuff too but you know what michael is here with us in spirit he hasnt truly left us 100% just keep thinking he loves you more and he will live on forever

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yawning im trying not to fall asleep :lol:
 
crying. It just came on after I see how much people are missing him deeply. I know I'm not the only one even though I feel like it. My heart still feels like it has ripped in 10,000 pieces and will never heal. I just hope Michael gave his 3 children strength for this day and all the days to come of their lives. I can't help but cry when I think of them. I am sure they are strong and having a lovely christmas with the family.
I'm totally upset now so I'm going to put my lamp on and read Dancing the Dream book I got today then fall asleep.
I can also see the poster on my wall I got a year ago today. I can't believe it has been hanging there a whole year. :cry:
merry christmas michael. :cry:
 
aww i got lots of MJ Stuff too but you know what michael is here with us in spirit he hasnt truly left us 100% just keep thinking he loves you more and he will live on forever

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yawning im trying not to fall asleep :lol:

I know you are right but it is just so hard knowing that. And thinking about what his poor children are going through now. Because they had a father to spend Christmas with last year. Now they no longer do. :(
 
I know you are right but it is just so hard knowing that. And thinking about what his poor children are going through now. Because they had a father to spend Christmas with last year. Now they no longer do. :(

aww i know we need to be strong for michael and his children
i have my days where i cant get him off my mind

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laying on my bed ahhh im cosy no getting up for me so if u were planning on asking me to move two words forget it :lol:
 
Trying very hard to restrained myself from ordering any more MJ items on ebay with my mother's credit card. I already bought a full size $235 MJ comforter and matching pillow shams set. And I had also ordered the Michael Jackson Treasures book. This is for my birthday and getting these 2 things will sort of make up for the miserable birthday I know I am going to have.
 
I'm reading an email a friend of mine sent me but looks like I'll have to finish it another time, a lovely 2 year old lady and two 8 year olds demand my attention. Gotta go entertain the kids...
 
Hanging out on MJJC...Getting ready to go to the gym (gonna jam to Michael - he's what motivates me to work out!)
 
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