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Just eating a salad for my breakfast. While I play my Final Fantasy 9 game and drink some peach ice tea. As I just sadly and miserably think about my beloved Michael. And just wishing I could get over the depression I still am in over him. :sad:
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Just listening to some of Michael's songs before I go up to bed. I am feeling really tired right now. As well as feeling pretty sick. :cry:



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Thank you and I hope you feel better.




Right now just eating a chicken sandwich and some French fries for my supper. As I drink some peach ice tea. And watch this PBS program about Americans who suffer from depression. The most perfect show for me to watch. Since I am one of those Americans who is suffering from depression.
 
Just eating a mint chocolate chip and chocolate ice cream cone. Along with a piece of angel food cake and a piece of lemon crunch bundt cake for my breakfast. As I drink some skim milk and watch tv. And just feeling so deeply depressed over Michael that I need the comfort food right now.
 
Thinking about the trip I'm taking in 2 weeks to Italy:wub:, reading here and on facebook, listening to music, and enjoying the new position and department I'm in now at work. :)
 
Watching Billlie Jean from HWT in Helsinki
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MJE4ever said:
:hug: :flowers: we have very hard moments over Michael... I'm trying, you know, but I'm still very very sensitive... :cry:.
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Yeah it is the way with me lately I guess. And I so badly want to get over my depression over Michael. But ever since I had that really sad dream about Michael last week. And I thought I stopped having those sad MJ dreams. My depression had just worsen and made me realized that I will never get over this depression.


Right now I am just sitting here not feeling very well and just sadly thinking about my beloved Michael. As I watch this new program on the HIStory Channel about extreme airports. And I am going to get myself a little something to eat for my supper. Thinking maybe eating a little something would make me feel a bit better.
 
Listening to my beloved Michael and getting ready to go to bed. I just wish I could sleep forever. Because I miss Michael so much when I am awake. :weeping:

MJsBollywoodGirl7 said:
Yeah it is the way with me lately I guess. And I so badly want to get over my depression over Michael. But ever since I had that really sad dream about Michael last week. And I thought I stopped having those sad MJ dreams. My depression had just worsen and made me realized that I will never get over this depression.
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I know it really is hard. :hug: I have depression, and my depression was so bad today that I took a lot of Xanax. My grief is so intense and it is only getting worse everyday. I feel more empty and lost everyday. I thought I was getting better and then something snapped and I am a mess again. :boohoo: It is like I take 2 steps forward in this game and then draw a go back to the beginning card.
 
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