What Now??

datblackboi08

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For me personally...Michael Jackson has been apart of my life on a daily basis...whether it be listening to his music, watching his videos, or drawing and painting pictures of this man who I truly believed would outlive me. Along with the hundreds and millions of other fans, I'm at a loss..I feel like my own flesh and blood has passed..How are others coping? Everytime I hear that he is gone it feels like my first time hearing it.
 
I hate hearing it repeated too. Its so unreal. I keep asking myself what do I do now but I come up with nothing. It still hurts too much and I don't know if it will ever go away.
 
I am completely broken. I go to my house and can not find a place where I could find peace. There has been a most terrible about what I could only think. What should I do, I do not know. My life for an eclipse of the loss of Michael.​
 
I'm at a loss as to think how to go on. Have tried going through the motions but I cannot walk down the street and see people looking normal without thinking 'why are they not crying? Don't they know who we have lost?'
 
i am unsure what to do with myself i have singing tonight and tomorrow im doing backing in aband tonight and we're doing beat it...damnit i cant do it i can't

:(
 
I can't take this! How Do i stop crying??? This hurts to bad! I don;t know what to do now... Michael I need you.
 
he was only reason why i staying alive and he is gone now. i'm lost
i have no idea what to do
i was going to meet him in august, to tell him my thanks for saving me
i'm late
if god exist - i should die not him
 
if everything is lost than Michael's message was in vain. i'm lost without him. it's like walking on my own when i always had his hand in mine.

but during all his life Michael was giving small pieces of his heart to the fans. he would always say "i live for you" and he proved it with his life. if i allow his light that he gave me to go off - i will let him down.

now we need to revive him in us
paramedics couldnt save him but it's our turn now.
 
July 13th hyde park come and show your respect!! 4PM ONWARDS!! LETS MAKE HISTORY!!
 
People, I am so hard to understand it all by my mind. I learned English only because wished to communicate with you on this forum to read and written about Michael in his mother tongue. I have read all his books. Michael is not now, and what do I do? I am totally lost and broken.​
 
On Thursday a close friend of mine passed away. People I know find it hard to understand that I could feel this way about someone I didnt know! But I feel like I did know him, he had a strong connection with a lot of people which is a wonderful thing. I think Michael knew that as well, I really think he did.
 
I'm at a loss as to think how to go on. Have tried going through the motions but I cannot walk down the street and see people looking normal without thinking 'why are they not crying? Don't they know who we have lost?'

I know what you mean. At college on friday i didn't understand why more people weren;t upset. It annoyed me
 
he was only reason why i staying alive and he is gone now. i'm lost
i have no idea what to do
if god exist - i should die not him



I know so well what you mean...so well how you are feeling...
I amk wondering the same
lets all have hope and give time to time...Hopefully it will help
 
I wanted to stop writing on this forum, because Michael died, and for me all the eclipse and had lost meaning, but I think that all of you were very close to me in my grief here and so I stay in this place with you all.
 
I just find it so hard to believe that this will become like a website dedicated to his memory. I can't believe I wont log in here anymore and not see threads about current MJ news, speculating about new music, upcoming concerts, new sightings of MJ,etc. Nothing to look forward to anymore. Basically, this sux.
 
When I came to work today it was the first day since Michael's gone. And in my browser there was open tab with General Disscussion left from Thursday. It still shows countdown till 13th, all those happy threads... I can't just shut it down, I keep returning to this tab again and again, refusing to deal with new reality :( :(
 
People, I am so hard to understand it all by my mind. I learned English only because wished to communicate with you on this forum to read and written about Michael in his mother tongue. I have read all his books. Michael is not now, and what do I do? I am totally lost and broken.​

Now we have to carry on what we learned from him. We loved him because of what he was inside. Now its up to us to spread that around our worlds, so that we can help make this world better. Be happy, he has passed on to a better place, he no longer suffers and we know he went on to a better place because of the life that he lived. We have each other, right?
 
People, I am so hard to understand it all by my mind. I learned English only because wished to communicate with you on this forum to read and written about Michael in his mother tongue. I have read all his books. Michael is not now, and what do I do? I am totally lost and broken.​

I'm not sure sweetheart, I'm not sure. But all I know is looking down, Michael would be proud to know that you learned English for him and that he helped you learn another language. He would be proud of you.

I'm at a loss as to think how to go on. Have tried going through the motions but I cannot walk down the street and see people looking normal without thinking 'why are they not crying? Don't they know who we have lost?'

That's exactly how I feel! :no: I hate seeing moving things...people just walking about and being normal, the wind blowing, the branches moving, the sunshing etc. I can't see how life is going on...but our Michael has gone. I pray that he is looking down on us and will give us the strenght to carry on being happy and spreading his message. I love you Michael, I love you.

Let's all remember that although he is gone, his soul lives on. He still has feeling and he can see and know things. He is with us right now, not physically but his spirit is. It really is.
 
Try to live on I guess. He's a part of my life, yes still a part because he's in my heart. But what I do at the moment is downloading as much dvd's in 2000 watts topics. So I can enjoy his performances in my livingroom with my mother who will also watch.
Making drawings of him, dancing like him. Just like the 'old' days.
 
On Thursday a close friend of mine passed away. People I know find it hard to understand that I could feel this way about someone I didnt know! But I feel like I did know him, he had a strong connection with a lot of people which is a wonderful thing. I think Michael knew that as well, I really think he did.

I know just what you mean. I love Michael, I always loved him and still do. I never met him but that makes no difference to the way I felt. I know many, many others feel the same way.
 
Its killing me too, everything i did was michael! example:When i cleaned my room i would listen to michael,when i did my ironing i would put on an mj dvd,when i felt sad my mum would always say ''put a michael dvd on, you know it makes you feel better'',if i drew a picture it was michael,i would spend my money on merchandise and every so often i would get thet warm fuzzy feeling when i thought about the concerts and now it has gone:(
I have decided i am going to try and do lots of different things for charity especially childrens charities,even if it means a paraschute jump and every time i do something i will say i did that for michael, because we have to look after the children of the world for him know that he is no longer able to!!
it will keep me busy and i know he would be proud!!
 
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