I thought I was getting better, but I was wrong..

you are NOT insane. you feel how you feel, everyone grieves in their own way. so pay no attention to what people tell you, and if you feel you need help,seek for it! YOU'RE ONLY HUMAN!
 
I just wanted to add something.
In NO way am i speculating anything between all of us, b ut just remember, as i have seen, i feel Michael's fans can sometimes be a little competitive with how they feel towards him. There's always this underlying " i love him more because i .... " kind of thing. In relation to this, PLEASE DO NOT FEEL LIKE YOU ARE ANY LESS OF A FAN IF YOU ARE NOT GRIEVING OR IF YOU HAVE STARTED TO FEEL BETTER!!!

You are not betraying Michael by listening and enjoing other artists or getting back to real life. We all know that Michael is a part of us forever, so please do not feel like you have to continue to endure this forcefully to prove that you really love him.
We all love him so much, this is totally tacit!

Bottom line
Hope you guys will feel better soon
we can make it together
 
Hope you get over it soon. Usually it takes me a couple weeks after someone dies to get over it. Yesterday was actually the first day I felt completely normal. I listen to MJ songs now and feel great about it. I think after the memorial happened, thats when I really accepted it. I cried a bit on that day from a few things but thats the last time.

I am keeping upto date with the investigation though, like interviews on LK and stuff

Hope everyone is feeling better sooN!

(fan of Michael Jackson for 20 years)
Matt
 
i feel the same as you , but i start to hate the world,why and why they do this to him. why they hate him so much like this why they do not respect him they want the world to hate him . today i read an article by an american politician who said that michael is afreak who doesn't deserve any respect only the american soldiers deserve this .

Ameircan soldiers where killed for more than five years why now they want to honor them.why michael's funeral is expensive while 1993,2003 trials were not.
 
Your not alone Bongani, my case is somewhat similar, the pain is constant but my crying outbursts come and go, I guess is just my way to deal with it.

Eating is something you must not neglect, it'll make you feel even worst and you'll get sick. Don't be embarrased to talk about it with others, it's always good to talk, maybe to a close close friend or family member, it's helped me to talk things out with my sister even though she doesn't completely get it.
 
I had a cry to my mum the other night and it's seriously helped, i was surprised at how understanding she really was.
 
Your not alone Bongani, my case is somewhat similar, the pain is constant but my crying outbursts come and go, I guess is just my way to deal with it.

Eating is something you must not neglect, it'll make you feel even worst and you'll get sick. Don't be embarrased to talk about it with others, it's always good to talk, maybe to a close close friend or family member, it's helped me to talk things out with my sister even though she doesn't completely get it.

Agreed, self flaggelation is not the way to go and ceasing to eat is in no way healthy or constructive.

Please believe me because I speak from experience, last year something happened to me and I stopped eating, had a ton of dizzy spells at one point almost fainted and felt just horrid so do not do this to yourself its not worth it.
 
It feels good to know I'm not the only one who have cried many tears over Michael's death. I got shocked at fist when the news hit me like a lightning from above. It was early night and I had almost fallen asleep when my brother called me and all I could hear was "Michael", "hospital" "DEAD". Gee, I just coul not belive it. My brother told me to go check the news and so I did. The news was so terrible I started to shake in my whole body. Michael Jackson, my idol and the person I adored most in the world since many years ago was dead. I feelt such a pain and in the early morning I had to go to work but I could not sleep, I just cried and my husband and daughter was sleeping so I was alone in the dark.
The next day it feelt like waking up from a terrible nightmare, only to realise it was true. I didn't feel like going to work, but I had. I was listening to our swedish radiostation RIX.fm in the car and the next song was Man in the Mirror. Before getting to work I broke down in the car, tears flooded. That day at work was hard day. I'm working with children so you're supposed to be happy and so.
In the early years in my fanhood I had some MJ pals and I went to see him live History tour -97 and in Munich MJ and friends -99. It was the happiest days in my life besides when my daughter was born one year ago. As a parent I got busy and left some of the MJ world aside but I was still a fan. I thought maybe I will have a chance to go see him in London this summer but didn't book any tickets because it's not easy to just leave when you have a small child. Now he's gone and I'm so happy that I saw him twice and feelt his presens two times in life. I try to survive on the happy feelings of seeing him live and his music has a deeper meaning for me now.
Unfortunatly I loosed contact with some of my MJ friends over the years so there is not really anyone close besides my husband and my mother wich I can talk to. This forum has become a great relive and comfort to the pain i feel in my heart on the fact that Michael is gone. It really feels like somone close to you have died. I try to overcome it but suddenly the feelings start to hit me again, OMG he's gone but never forgotten.
Thank you for reading, I just had to write me off everything...
 
Hamelisa1, you're so lucky to have seen him in concert. Im so jealous
 
yeah lol, didn't know how well you knew the people so didn't want to bag them.

i tell ya the delete button has been very useful in facebook recently... deleted like 5 people based on their status or stupid comments, f... them.

Bro when it comes to MJ I don't take no prisoners, no matter how well I know a person. You should have shot them down! Also deleted a few clowns as of late.
 
BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU. MJJC I LOVE YOU! I haven't met most of you personally but I must say at this point in time, you're the only friends I need. Looking at the sheer amount of love in this place, I feel Michael achieved his objective. He truelly did "Heal the world". Again THANK YOU..
 
Things have been good the past few days...but today i burst out into sobs. Just thinking that tomorrow would have been opening night...and then reading some of the posts on here.

It was just too much, i sobbed and asked WHY? WHY? to who...God, i don't know..

Its going to be a long journey to healing, Michael will have tributes to him and other realated mentionings in the media and on TV in months/years to come. We have to be strong, and share our emotions..dont let anybody make you feel guilty for loving Michael and crying for him.

we are fortunate in the end.
 
Things have been good the past few days...but today i burst out into sobs. Just thinking that tomorrow would have been opening night...and then reading some of the posts on here.

It was just too much, i sobbed and asked WHY? WHY? to who...God, i don't know..

Its going to be a long journey to healing, Michael will have tributes to him and other realated mentionings in the media and on TV in months/years to come. We have to be strong, and share our emotions..dont let anybody make you feel guilty for loving Michael and crying for him.

we are fortunate in the end.


Remember there was a thread b4, that said that "If it was this Hype a month before the show, Can you imagen what it would be like the day b4 the show?" I said those words...:wild:

I think it was like days later that this thing happened to Michael.:(
 
Things have been good the past few days...but today i burst out into sobs. Just thinking that tomorrow would have been opening night...and then reading some of the posts on here.

It was just too much, i sobbed and asked WHY? WHY? to who...God, i don't know..

Its going to be a long journey to healing, Michael will have tributes to him and other realated mentionings in the media and on TV in months/years to come. We have to be strong, and share our emotions..dont let anybody make you feel guilty for loving Michael and crying for him.

we are fortunate in the end.

I'm sorry.

I got hit with the sobs on the way home today when one of his song's came on the radio. "Human Nature" used to make me sad as it was - maybe sad isn't the right word - but it sure made me sad today.

I dunno...I hate this.
 
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