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A MUST READ FOR EVERYONE...the stages and symptoms of grief

........ThXxX for posting!:yes:

Well I eat and sleep and try to live day by day so hard as I can,do my best I can although its hard,crying spells are gone,feel lost and empty now and drained indeed:yes:
 
Thank you so much for starting this thread. I cannot express how much this forum has helped me through my grieving process. I don't know how I would've made it through without you guys--but God led me to this site exactly 3 weeks to the day after Michael's passing, and the healing began. I had nobody except my mother to vent to, while everybody else probably thought I was just another "nutjob MJ fan." :smilerolleyes: They just DON'T know, and now I feel kinda sorry for them. I need to be around positive people who think and feel the same as I do. From what I'm learning here from other members is that most of them seem to be very good, genuine people with extremely kind hearts. This has all made me wonder... is this why we love MJ so much? Or is this why he loved us so much? Just an interesting thought I've been having. :) The people on this site are just AMAZINGLY smart, sympathetic, kind, funny, outgoing, and so open-minded. God bless you all for being here for me and for everyone else. :angel:
 
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I dreamt last night that Michael was in a hall but I was not allowed in..........:-(
He was dancing on a table as I could see through the window of a swing door......
Someone had written about how sad it was that Michael had died...........I read it.......but in my dream I was like NO he is there!!! I can see him!! But I couldnt get to him.....:-(
 
Well right now I just feel depressed beyond belief. Eugh...I don't even know why I'm writing this post. Just eugh. :( :cry:
 
...................I listened yesterday to dont walk away and cried again,miss him SO Much,well that song will help me if I feel I bottle it all up wich I am momentarly,feel numb,empty etc...........
 
Billie_Jean09 said:
I dreamt last night that Michael was in a hall but I was not allowed in..........:-(
He was dancing on a table as I could see through the window of a swing door......
Someone had written about how sad it was that Michael had died...........I read it.......but in my dream I was like NO he is there!!! I can see him!! But I couldnt get to him.....:-(
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Wasn't it exactly like that when he was alive?
How many times was I THIS close, only to be pushed away by a security guard or a policeman...? And I was really behaving, knowing that one false move and I'm out of there...

He lives. He's here. Nothing's changed.

(but then - why am I so god damn sad???)
 
I counted them up and I figured out that I have about 14 of those symptoms on that list.

This is so strange to me..I honestly never had to deal with losing somebody close to me (not yet anyway) so this is a new feeling for me..
 
Court.ney.x said:
I counted them up and I figured out that I have about 14 of those symptoms on that list.

This is so strange to me..I honestly never had to deal with losing somebody close to me (not yet anyway) so this is a new feeling for me..
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Hugs to you Courtney.
I was in the denial stage ..........until today. Now I'm angry. :(
I was ok in denial stage as even putting my mood on here as ''inspired'' or ''in love'' ( With MJ of course)......but now....oh boy now I'm angry. :doh:
Being angry zaps you of energy so am also exhausted. :(

Anyone else ID? :agree:

These feelings are supposed to be normal and expected.............I have grieved over my mother and my baby grandson still born last year.......so these deep feelings of pain from grief are not unfamiliar to me. :no:

I am grieving for Michael at the same level.........very true. Folks say ''he was just a pop star so how can this be''?
Just a pop star? EXCUSE ME???!!! Like no way- he was my brother and friend, will adore and love him until my own end.....and beyond. :agree:
 
Billie_Jean09 said:
Folks say ''he was just a pop star so how can this be''?
Just a pop star? EXCUSE ME???!!! Like no way- he was my brother and friend, will adore and love him until my own end.....and beyond. :agree:
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Duh!
I don't mean to offend anyone here, but people that say those kinds of things know NOTHING!

*hugs BillieJean09* I've been through the angry period in the last few days. Just gotta let it out, hun. I've never kicked as many stones in my life as I have in the last few days.
Take care, I'll say a little prayer for your mother and your grandson tonight.
 
Billie_Jean09 said:
Hugs to you Courtney.
I was in the denial stage ..........until today. Now I'm angry. :(
I was ok in denial stage as even putting my mood on here as ''inspired'' or ''in love'' ( With MJ of course)......but now....oh boy now I'm angry. :doh:
Being angry zaps you of energy so am also exhausted. :(

Anyone else ID? :agree:

These feelings are supposed to be normal and expected.............I have grieved over my mother and my baby grandson still born last year.......so these deep feelings of pain from grief are not unfamiliar to me. :no:

I am grieving for Michael at the same level.........very true. Folks say ''he was just a pop star so how can this be''?
Just a pop star? EXCUSE ME???!!! Like no way- he was my brother and friend, will adore and love him until my own end.....and beyond. :agree:
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Fluffy_Oz said:
Duh!
I don't mean to offend anyone here, but people that say those kinds of things know NOTHING!

*hugs BillieJean09* I've been through the angry period in the last few days. Just gotta let it out, hun. I've never kicked as many stones in my life as I have in the last few days.
Take care, I'll say a little prayer for your mother and your grandson tonight.
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:hugs: To Bille Jean and Fluffy!!! Oh guys, I understand! I so hard that people just dont get this love we have for this exeptional men! I know that if the people that judge us for this give us a day just to show them who we lost, they will suffer just as much as we do! But is so hard to deal with this alone! I know I am alone with this, at least in my personal circule. But is true what Fluffy say, I bealive they KNOW NOTHING!!!!

I dont know if I should start worring, is beeing almost 2 months and I still in denial :cry:
Someone told me is just that I am not ready lo let go, but I am not sure if I ever want to let go!!! I hope to make some progress, but when I think I have, I take 2 steps back.....
I just hope it will get better with time!
LOVE!
 
pg13 said:
I dont know if I should start worring, is beeing almost 2 months and I still in denial :cry:
Someone told me is just that I am not ready lo let go, but I am not sure if I ever want to let go!!! I hope to make some progress, but when I think I have, I take 2 steps back.....
I just hope it will get better with time!
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I'm holding your hand, sweetie... Feeling exactly the same.
Not read to let go either, don't think ever will.
Lots of love!:friends:
 
Thanks for posting. I think I'm permantly stuck between Depression and Acceptance :(
 
Thanks for posting! I have many of these symptoms. It feels like there's a hole in my heart. I keep forgetting things. I feel not motivated at all to do anything, etc. etc. It's like the summer from hell... I hope being at the Tribute in Best the 29th of August with all the other MJ fans will help me feel a little better. Reading all the messages on this forum has also helped me a lot! It will take some time I guess...
Lots of love!
 
These are really true i went/am still am going through some of these things. Up until june 25th i had overused the word shock without really knowing what it meant. i was in a constant state of shock for a little over 3 weeks straight. Its the worst feeling. The only way i can describe it was like i was in a trance, as if somhow i wasn't really in my body my mind was just somewhere else. i watched nothing but the news for a straight 3 weeks i've only fully integrated normal back into my life in the last 2 weeks. I was watching the news nonstop which really isn't healthy. There is so much pain and suffereing going on in the world right now and to watch that 24/7 its as if your there. I honestly was scared i was becoming mentally ill because that trance state is the worst thing. to feel your mind and your body are detached *shaking head* its just horrible.

I've learnt alot about myself throght this whole thing whuch is that i don't take death well. not too many people have died that were close to me except from my mother's best friend when i was 11 and my "father" when i was 13. the latter desensitized me to emotion for a long time and in the years 13, 14 and 15 i was extremely rebellious ( but a nice rebel) i never hurt aybody else but i always took everything out on myself and if it wasn't for a number of things i probably would have died befor i was 16 tragically. Thank god i'm still alive but i don't thank him as often as i should.

I had a pretty rough time around christmas 2002 and early 2003 i wasn't at home for a long time but everywhere i went the thing i held onto like treasure were 2 michael jackson dvd's my mum had bought i think the year before. It was those 2 histtory dvd'd the brown kind of one and one that was like blue and gold. Just so many memories but michael brought so much joy to a child like me who was essentially broken inside... i just hope he knows just how much he meant to so many people on a much deeper level than enjoying his music.

Some times i just close my eyes for a minute i sear it feels like he's smiling i hust did it now. alli want now is for him to be happy. i personally am not too interested in the burial buisness. The body belongs to the earth now but when the family choose to do it is their decision. Michael is no longer there he is everywhere looking over his children and his mother all his family and friends and his fans giving them silent strength when they feel they are becoming weak. I love you michael xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx :)
 
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