HIStory & me

[Lark]

It seems so! Today, and all week, have felt so emotionally tired. Like I am being stretched so tight I need to just scream, it's killing me! I don't know what maybe I just need to let it all go. Maybe I'm tired of trying to seem like have it all together. I feel so on edge, like I can't relax. do any of you feel like this sometimes?

 

[laeticia.fr]

I am here just to say :hello: to everyone.
I stayed 3 days in a hospital for some medical issues. :8-25-03stretcher:
As usual, I confessed to three of doctors I was MJ fan.
They've sweetly smiled to me.

 

[Lark]

I hope everything is okay with you! Glad your back, I missed you. Did you have any music with you?

 

[laeticia.fr]

I hope everything is okay with you! Glad your back, I missed you. Did you have any music with you?

Thank you Lark. :heart:
I’m very tired right now.
I hope I have nothing serious. I’ll get the results next week.

I was deprived of music and Internet. I didn’t have the right to use i-phone. But the time passed quickly.
Michael was always with me, I could see his smiles whenever I closed my eyes, so I didn’t really miss him.
(I tell like that, but the truth is that I always miss him. )

 

[Daryll748]

So we have a club of broken candyness that needs to be recharged like a battery every once in a while.

:hysterical:

:agree: I know it's sounds :tease:

The thing is I really 'notice' the change in 'concentration' and level of 'Consciousness' ...

I had a pretty good 'charged' day today :cheeky:
I did look like an 'idiot' walking in the pouring rain with a HUGE smile on my face but I :heart: rain and Michael was 'charging' me through my earphones :bow:

Oh, I hope you're Okay Laeticia :better:

Well, I know MP3 players are 'forbidden' in Hospital but I did have mine with me though... I tucked it safely away and before my OP 2 years ago, I 'secretly' listened to "Beautiful girl" and the nursing staff was 'baffled' why I wasn't a bundle of nerves...

Hope you can 'charge' now :cheeky:

 

[Daryll748]

It seems so! Today, and all week, have felt so emotionally tired. Like I am being stretched so tight I need to just scream, it's killing me! I don't know what maybe I just need to let it all go. Maybe I'm tired of trying to seem like have it all together. I feel so on edge, like I can't relax. do any of you feel like this sometimes?

I do wanna 'quote' this here 'separately' as Lark :ciao: I always FEEL like that...

I NEED to be creative, chatty, busy helping people and stuff...
RELAX is a BAH word to me... I had to relax for about 6 months after my spine OP and I hate my sofa and stupid TV programs right now :beee:

Anyway, the "emotional draining" stuff...
Did something happen out of the 'ordinary' this week?
Did you have a 'brush' or 'quarrel' with someone?

YOU don't have to 'reply' here with the 'answers, Lark... Just TRY to 'recapture' what 'event' this week brought you this 'emotional tweak'... It could have been the FULL MOON too... I get more 'emotional' when it's full moon though :tease:

Maybe, you're just fussing over things that still make you angry?

Letting go is sometimes 'healing' too...
Like I 'avoid' going to Tributes, MJ events, MJ book signings and so on now as I feel my :heart: doesn't HEAL when I'm constantly 'confronted' with the 'loss' of Michael

So, I try to NOT follow the MJ news 'closely' anymore and do 'uplifting' stuff like HELPING people, CARING for animals, CREATING stuff, WRITING stories, SHOPPING... You know...

 

[Sunflowers]

It seems so! Today, and all week, have felt so emotionally tired. Like I am being stretched so tight I need to just scream, it's killing me! I don't know what maybe I just need to let it all go. Maybe I'm tired of trying to seem like have it all together. I feel so on edge, like I can't relax. do any of you feel like this sometimes?

I get what you're saying. Completely understand how you always pretend to be ok. I do the same. First Michael passed away and I was a wreck, which no one understood. So I pretended it didn't get too me as much as it did. The I got some trouble with my health, nothing serious though, and it's still not great. And now my dad has been daignosed with cancer. And still I'm pretending to be ok and I keep going. Doing everything I always do. But I come home completely drained in the evening. It's Friday evening and I'm so tired that I'll be in bed early. And like you I can't seem to relax. I have to keep busy doing whatever. Posting here or on Facebook, doing something in the house. The only thing I can sitdown for is music

I think we need to learn how to let it go once in a while Lark. So much healthier.

I am here just to say :hello: to everyone.
I stayed 3 days in a hospital for some medical issues. :8-25-03stretcher:
As usual, I confessed to three of doctors I was MJ fan.
They've sweetly smiled to me.

I hope you are ok Laeticia. Rest up well!!

 

[laeticia.fr]

I feel like a student who missed school 3 days. :mello:
I’m going to write little by little to posts written during my absence. -_-

History tour should have been my first MJ concert. I was too young for the other tours. But unfortunatly I was out of the country with school when he performed in Amsterdam. Gosh I can remember it so well how dissapointed I was. I wanted to stay home, didn't want to go on a trip. It really didn't matter how cool the trip would be, I wanted to see MJ. But it didn't happen.....

Poor sunflowers You had been out of luck. If I were you, I’d have felt exactly like you.
If it was on normal day of school, one might find a way to skip class, but if it is during school trip, it’s quite different. Unfortunately a student has no choice.

WOW :bow: I'm so GLAD you've joined MJJC... Honestly, I do :blush: :

Thank you so much for your kinds words, which really heat inside me. :blush:

I can't believe what a HUGE impact it has left on me... I didn't even realize how STRONG connected I was to Michael before I lost him... I was just a Loyal fan... I had a full time job, I was in a dance group... We did LIVE shows... I loved to travel... :

I lived in my Michael room for about 2 years... I meant living, sleeping, breathing... This has 'gladly' changed as I created a BED room again and my Michael room has become my Office 'MJ style'... I even created a NEW living room...

WHY? I guess it's the trauma of watching all these 'newscasts' of June 25, you know... :

I understand perfectly what you said. Because I figured out how you are and how you were living your life through all that you had written. :mello:

Inside I'm 'broken' into thousands pieces:

This too I understand very well. Your expression is so right, so true and truthful…, which makes me cry

It made me realize so much more that I didn't just love his music. But I loved the way he looked at life, at people, at the world. I admired his kindness, generosity and forgivingness and not only wanted to be like that, but recognized myself in that. To be the person that most of this harsh world won't let you be, and that is to be a kind and caring person.
Maybe this is what we all relate too. The MJ fam sees who we can be and won't let the world decide on how we should be. It's what brings us all together and Michael was the reason.

What you’ve written is exact and almost of fans feel exactly like you. I think MJ fans are very special, but this is normal, because our Michael was so special, he was so good in his way to live in this world, especially in his way to deal with all the problems, all the misery and all the evil that this world contains…, and he showed us and paved the way to follow.

The part of me that sees him like a father is the part of me that wishes I knew how much he cared when I was younger. I think if I had known that he would have cared what I was feeling even though he didn't know me, it would have been a great source of comfort.

I understand very well. But that makes me think of Michael’s three children and makes me cry. If a fan got this sort of feeling, how much should they miss their father??

I'm FINE at HOME... here with MJ singing in my earphones or blasting through my speakers... Talking about Michael and stuff... Then again, my 'battery' runs out quite quickly when I'm out...

Unlike you, I suffer much more when I'm alone at home, because I’m fully in MJ world here. When I'm out or when I’m with others, I can control better myself. My carapace is very thick and I'm a good actress. I perfectly play a role. Sometimes myself fall into the game and I fell like I’m doing well. But at home, I live without carapace. I’m much too fragile, because I have no carapace that protects me ... It is at home I need more often charge battery


I'll continue tomorrow.

 

[Lark]

So, I try to NOT follow the MJ news 'closely' anymore and do 'uplifting' stuff like HELPING people, CARING for animals, CREATING stuff, WRITING stories, SHOPPING... You know...

I don't follow the new either, it is really all about other people, not Michael, anyway. I am trying to focus on positive things lke helping people. He isn't here to do it anymore, it's up to us. But you make a god point about creating, I haven't performed in a long time and maybe I need to release pent up creative energy.

I am not angry really an have not argued with anybody recently, but I am starting training for my new job next week. I will fly from Ottawa to Calgary and stay there for a month of training, which will be intense. I am excited, bit maybe I'm a bit nervous, and trying to bury the nerves. I will also see my closest childhood friends who I have not seen i over ten years. I love the very much because they were there a a time when I was happy in m childhood with them but nervous about what childhood memories might come back,as these are the things I have been dealing with these past few months. we used to play outside while listening to History together. We have so much catching up to do, I am afraid I will cry. I am also afraid I won't be myself because I will be trying not to cry or pretending m life is all perfect. Can I still open up to them? I hope so.

My boyfriend also had a heart attack a couple of months ago. He lives four hours away from me, and I have been to visit a few times, but I do worry about him. Maybe this is part of it. When I say I can't relax, I don't mean sit down or watch tv.. I sort of mean, in my heart. I am very tense, even my voice seems higher then usual..

I get what you're saying. Completely understand how you always pretend to be ok. I do the same. First Michael passed away and I was a wreck, which no one understood. So I pretended it didn't get too me as much as it did. The I got some trouble with my health, nothing serious though, and it's still not great. And now my dad has been daignosed with cancer. And still I'm pretending to be ok and I keep going. Doing everything I always do. But I come home completely drained in the evening. It's Friday evening and I'm so tired that I'll be in bed early. And like you I can't seem to relax. I have to keep busy doing whatever.

I am sorry to hear about your dad, I hope you are dong okay :better:

Thank you so much for allowing me to write this here. Like you said, people don't understand and NOBODY knows how affected I've been about Michael, only you guys. It is hard to talk about anything that has been hard because I feel like I am dumping my problems on people. It is better here 1) I can mention Michael and you'll inderstand why 2) you can read, respond, both, or neither! All at your convenience, I don't feel guilty.

Thanks everyone :heart:

 

[Daryll748]

I don't follow the new either, it is really all about other people, not Michael, anyway. I am trying to focus on positive things lke helping people. He isn't here to do it anymore, it's up to us. But you make a god point about creating, I haven't performed in a long time and maybe I need to release pent up creative energy.

Indeed, I FEEL I'm HEALED right now cause I spent time just creating and feeding my soul...
Creative people NEED that 'outburst' of creativity so they can BREATHE and FUNCTION again in this world...

I am not angry really an have not argued with anybody recently, but I am starting training for my new job next week. I will fly from Ottawa to Calgary and stay there for a month of training, which will be intense. I am excited, bit maybe I'm a bit nervous, and trying to bury the nerves. I will also see my closest childhood friends who I have not seen i over ten years. I love the very much because they were there a a time when I was happy in m childhood with them but nervous about what childhood memories might come back,as these are the things I have been dealing with these past few months. we used to play outside while listening to History together. We have so much catching up to do, I am afraid I will cry. I am also afraid I won't be myself because I will be trying not to cry or pretending m life is all perfect. Can I still open up to them? I hope so.

My boyfriend also had a heart attack a couple of months ago. He lives four hours away from me, and I have been to visit a few times, but I do worry about him. Maybe this is part of it. When I say I can't relax, I don't mean sit down or watch tv.. I sort of mean, in my heart. I am very tense, even my voice seems higher then usual..

I think it's really brave you can write what you FEEL... That's the first step in 'healing'... :better:
I'm sorry to hear about your boyfriend... I hope he's BETTER now...

Thank you so much for allowing me to write this here. Like you said, people don't understand and NOBODY knows how affected I've been about Michael, only you guys. It is hard to talk about anything that has been hard because I feel like I am dumping my problems on people. It is better here 1) I can mention Michael and you'll inderstand why 2) you can read, respond, both, or neither! All at your convenience, I don't feel guilty.

Thanks everyone :heart:

You're welcome, Lark :ciao: I'm glad I could HELP and in NO WAY, you're dumping your problems here... TALKING OR WRITING here is 'HEALING' :angel:

It's seems the 'emotional wave' I'm going through is also 'cause I'm starting an intern ship in about a week and I have 'mixed' feelings about it too... I tell people I'm excited and ready but I'm exactly scared as hell :blush: cause I have to face my 'inner demons' now...

I do KNOW that I have you guys to feel SAVE and HOME with :blush:

Thanks :better: from Daryll.

 

[laeticia.fr]

I know that my true self really is like Michael,

That’s great, and you’re lucky. I rather find differences and deep gaps between Michael and me. It is rare to me to find something common. And if I have the impression having find something common with him, it is not necessarily something that only a few people and me could share with Michael, but most people…, because it is something essential to human nature, thus most people possesses it by nature ... I mean, goodness, kindness, optimism, faith in future, courage face to difficulties, etc, etc. (Or am I too naïve to believe in positive aspects of human nature ? If so, this is another point I share with Michael ;D Anyway, in the case of Michael, all his good qualities went beyond the standards that ordinary people could achieve. :yes: ) And because of this part in me, Michael’s way to deal with the life is really useful to me as a model, as Lark says :

he is my role model. When it gets hard I think, how would Michael deal with it? With grace, without complaining, and by giving love any way he could. That is what I strive for in myself.

Anyway I can say that Michael helps us a lot. Although he is no longer here physically among us on the earth, he keeps helping and healing us. This is really great and magical. :yes:

It seems so! Today, and all week, have felt so emotionally tired. Like I am being stretched so tight I need to just scream, it's killing me! I don't know what maybe I just need to let it all go. Maybe I'm tired of trying to seem like have it all together. I feel so on edge, like I can't relax. do any of you feel like this sometimes?

I simply think that “c’est la vie”… :mello: But I'm sure you have the inner strength that overcomes those difficult moments in life. Anyway 'time' collaborates in your struggles in case of gross difficulties.

I get what you're saying. Completely understand how you always pretend to be ok. I do the same. First Michael passed away and I was a wreck, which no one understood. So I pretended it didn't get too me as much as it did. The I got some trouble with my health, nothing serious though, and it's still not great. And now my dad has been daignosed with cancer. And still I'm pretending to be ok and I keep going. Doing everything I always do.

Pretending to be okay, yeah, everyone does it, and sometimes it works amazingly. Magical formulas like ‘It’s Okay. Everything is doing well, everything will be doing well’ are necessary to go forward and believe in oneself and in future. But some other times, this only serves to conceal our own needs, therefore aggravates and complicates things…

@ I hope your father is in a positive phase towards the final and complete recovery. :8-25-03pray:

 

[laeticia.fr]

Letting go is sometimes 'healing' too...
Like I 'avoid' going to Tributes, MJ events, MJ book signings and so on now as I feel my :heart: doesn't HEAL when I'm constantly 'confronted' with the 'loss' of Michael

So, I try to NOT follow the MJ news 'closely' anymore and do 'uplifting' stuff like HELPING people, CARING for animals, CREATING stuff, WRITING stories, SHOPPING... You know...

I don't follow the new either, it is really all about other people, not Michael, anyway. I am trying to focus on positive things lke helping people. He isn't here to do it anymore, it's up to us. But you make a god point about creating, I haven't performed in a long time and maybe I need to release pent up creative energy.

You two are very different from me. I did nothing but following information or reading books, since 26 June 2009 in the morning until September 2012. I only stopped my routine when I came here on MJJC, because there are all new information about MJ and I no longer need to seek on Google by myself. I still buy the books one after another.

I really wanted to know about ALL causes of his death : direct cause Murray’s gross negligence) and indirect causes ( : the media, Chandler, Rothman, Sneddon, Bashir, Arvizo, Sony, Jackson Family, Thome, AEG, etc) on the one hand and also about his history of medication and sleep disturbances on the other hand). Putting lots of month, I did personal research to reach a certain conclusion. Otherwise, I could not calm my restless mind…

Thank you so much for allowing me to write this here. Like you said, people don't understand and NOBODY knows how affected I've been about Michael, only you guys. It is hard to talk about anything that has been hard because I feel like I am dumping my problems on people. It is better here 1) I can mention Michael and you'll inderstand why 2) you can read, respond, both, or neither! All at your convenience, I don't feel guilty.

We feel good here on MJJC. Our choice was good, , my only regret is not coming much earlier. But everything has its time.

Another difference is that I didn’t need to hide or disguise my feelings caused by Michael’s passing not only in the virtual world, but also in real life. Unlike you, EVERYONE knows how I was affected by his unexpected death. I was never embarrassed to talk about my grief to anyone in 2009, in 2010, in 2011... But in recent months, I'm a bit embarrassed, thinking people would be surprised to hear that one still keeps grieving 3 years after the death of someone who was not a family member or a close friend but a superstar... But if I explain clearly and honestly why I still grieve, people understand me. I think that’s because it is Michael Jackson.

I know where the difference comes from.

It is not really because my way to express myself to other is different from yours, but simply because I’m surrounded by people who are understanding, they’ve never been hostile toward Michael Jackson, they know how he was good, or if there is someone who don’t know enough about Michael, I explain and he or she believes in me. In other words, if they understand me, that’s because they understand Michael. But as for you, Lark and Daryll and others, if people misunderstand you, that’s because they misunderstand Michael, that’s all, and that’s why there are differences between us and your life would be harder than mine regarding our sentimental life centered on Michael.

 

[Lark]

I think it's really brave you can write what you FEEL... That's the first step in 'healing'

I think you are right, after writing to all of you I feel better, a lot better! I still feel stress, and sadness, and pain... but not on the unbearable level I was feeling before. Feels like a big release! I am also a big Tolkien geek and kept thinking of Bilbo's quote "I feel thin, stretched, like butter scrapped over too much bread" that is really what I feel, but not as badly now.

I'm glad I could HELP and in NO WAY, you're dumping your problems here... TALKING OR WRITING here is 'HEALING'

It's seems the 'emotional wave' I'm going through is also 'cause I'm starting an intern ship in about a week and I have 'mixed' feelings about it too... I tell people I'm excited and ready but I'm exactly scared as hell cause I have to face my 'inner demons' now...

I do KNOW that I have you guys to feel SAVE and HOME with

I am excited for you! It can be scary. Especially when hard work means looking within yourself. When I studied acting, so many people did not understand. They had essays to write, in their eyes I had o work to do and just played games all day. It's impossible to explain to academic types the work you are doing 24 hours a day! But you are right, you have a safe place to come to when you feel unsure or scared. I think it's great we are both taking leaps of faith at the same time Hold my hand and I promise I'll do all I can :heart:

if I have the impression having find something common with him, it is not necessarily something that only a few people and me could share with Michael, but most people…, because it is something essential to human nature, thus most people possesses it by nature ... I mean, goodness, kindness, optimism, faith in future, courage face to difficulties, etc, etc. (Or am I too naïve to believe in positive aspects of human nature ? If so, this is another point I share with Michael

Ah, but this is all I mean when I say my true self is really like Michael! And you are too, you really are. It is not one special thing that only few people share. I am happy because I have made a choice see this part of me. As I touched on I think in other posts, I could never fit in with my family. I was bullied both at school and at home and with nowhere to turn, I threw myself away like a piece of garbage. This is why I wish I had known ("known") Michael at the time, (Invincible era) seeing that these parts of myself were shared by someone like him might have given me enough strength to hold on. I. the end I became cynical about human nature. But I CHOOSE not to be now, I want to have the views I had when I was a child, and look at the world the way Michael did.

This is why I love the song Keep Your Head Up. It really speaks to me because I have become so tired in my life. Really, the only line that isn't for me is that... I don't have a baby! Hahaha but everything else is really just like me. He really had an ability to feel the pain of ordinary people what they go through without judging them.

I really wanted to know about ALL causes of his death : direct cause Murray’s gross negligence) and indirect causes ( : the media, Chandler, Rothman, Sneddon, Bashir, Arvizo, Sony, Jackson Family, Thome, AEG, etc) on the one hand and also about his history of medication and sleep disturbances on the other hand). Putting lots of month, I did personal research to reach a certain conclusion. Otherwise, I could not calm my restless mind…

You are right, in that way, I did the same thing, only after the Cirque show this summer. What I don't follow is the Murry trial or the "family drama" (I don't even know if any of it really exists or not, I don't want to) I read as much detail on the events of The Day as I could, but nothing else involving Murry. But just like you, I spent months doing personal research and reached my own conclusions.

But as for you, Lark and Daryll and others, if people misunderstand you, that’s because they misunderstand Michael

You are absolutely right! I think this is also a cultural difference between us. Finding someone here who understands Michael is actually really difficult. I have not found anyone yet.

 

[Daryll748]

You two are very different from me. I did nothing but following information or reading books, since 26 June 2009 in the morning until September 2012. I only stopped my routine when I came here on MJJC, because there are all new information about MJ and I no longer need to seek on Google by myself. I still buy the books one after another.

I really wanted to know about ALL causes of his death : direct cause Murray’s gross negligence) and indirect causes ( : the media, Chandler, Rothman, Sneddon, Bashir, Arvizo, Sony, Jackson Family, Thome, AEG, etc) on the one hand and also about his history of medication and sleep disturbances on the other hand). Putting lots of month, I did personal research to reach a certain conclusion. Otherwise, I could not calm my restless mind…

Well, It's only 'recently' that I stopped the quest in knowledge... I sadly know enough and since I 'quit' all this research... I'm more at ease 'cause I think that sometimes knowing 'too much' is not a blessing but more of a curse :smilerolleyes:

We feel good here on MJJC. Our choice was good, , my only regret is not coming much earlier. But everything has its time.

:clapping:Indeed, all in good time... Enjoy your stay here...

Another difference is that I didn’t need to hide or disguise my feelings caused by Michael’s passing not only in the virtual world, but also in real life. Unlike you, EVERYONE knows how I was affected by his unexpected death. I was never embarrassed to talk about my grief to anyone in 2009, in 2010, in 2011... But in recent months, I'm a bit embarrassed, thinking people would be surprised to hear that one still keeps grieving 3 years after the death of someone who was not a family member or a close friend but a superstar... But if I explain clearly and honestly why I still grieve, people understand me. I think that’s because it is Michael Jackson.

I know where the difference comes from.

It is not really because my way to express myself to other is different from yours, but simply because I’m surrounded by people who are understanding, they’ve never been hostile toward Michael Jackson, they know how he was good, or if there is someone who don’t know enough about Michael, I explain and he or she believes in me. In other words, if they understand me, that’s because they understand Michael. But as for you, Lark and Daryll and others, if people misunderstand you, that’s because they misunderstand Michael, that’s all, and that’s why there are differences between us and your life would be harder than mine regarding our sentimental life centered on Michael.

Thanks, I'll remember that :agree:

I am excited for you! It can be scary. Especially when hard work means looking within yourself. When I studied acting, so many people did not understand. They had essays to write, in their eyes I had o work to do and just played games all day. It's impossible to explain to academic types the work you are doing 24 hours a day! But you are right, you have a safe place to come to when you feel unsure or scared. I think it's great we are both taking leaps of faith at the same time

Hold my hand and I promise I'll do all I can

I guess the main thing WHY I 'disguise' my grief NOW and tell Peeps "I'm okay" is what happened last year... It's taking its 'affect' out NOW...

I thought I had REAL friends I could count on... They were also MJ fans so I thought NO ONE would 'protest' if I told them how I really FELT... Boy, was I wrong? They didn't CARE about me... I was treated as an 'outcast' for gaining a 'disability' :doh: and this hurt me really deep...
I thought MJ fans in 'general' were 'Michael like'... You know... Nice, kind, caring...

Then, I 'returned' here and I was showered by :heart: understanding, care cause MJJC is 'Michael like' :cheeky:

NOW, I realize WHY I'm scared or WHY I'm so 'hostile' towards NEW peeps I meet...
THANKS Laeticia, Lark and Sunflowers for 'helping' me 'realize' this :better:

 

[laeticia.fr]

Wow ! The forum is reopened !! :wild:
Or is it only me who couldn’t access since yesterday afternoon?? :mello:
I clicked more than 50 times, but it didn’t work.

This is fftopic: , but I copy the link.
http://techland.time.com/2012/11/01...ign=Feed:+time/topstories+(TIME:+Top+Stories)
I’d have loved give this to Michael as a surprise-gift, I'm sure he’d liked this kind of stuff in his room. :cupid:
Unfortunately he no longer needs it where his soul rests right now... :mello:

 

[Daryll748]

Wow ! The forum is reopened !! :wild:
Or is it only me who couldn’t access since yesterday afternoon?? :mello:
I clicked more than 50 times, but it didn’t work.

This is fftopic: , but I copy the link.
http://techland.time.com/2012/11/01/best-inventions-of-the-year-2012/?xid=rss-topstories&utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+time%2Ftopstories+%28TIME%3A+Top+Stories%29
I’d have loved give this to Michael as a surprise-gift, I'm sure he’d liked this kind of stuff in his room. :cupid:
Unfortunately he no longer needs it where his soul rests right now... :mello:

Yep, we were out and now we're back... :ciao:

The link is 'faulty' Laeticia... It 'freezed' my comp :doh:

 

[Lark]

Not for me! I've been here all this time! That is amazing, Michael wold have loved it!

 

[laeticia.fr]

Last evening when I finished writing another post, the site has been blocked again. I lost what I was writing.

What I don't follow is the Murry trial or the "family drama".

I’m a bit surprised although I know there are all kinds of fans and I respect all the fans.
I'm surprised because it is the first time I met a fan who didn’t follow Murray’s trials. :innocent:

Yesterday afternoon, before coming to this thread, I came across the thread : http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/threads/119146-French-Translations, and I decided to revise all in French. I followed the trial and I read almost all the articles and copied them, but all are in English.
I have no difficulty understanding English, but the problem is that my brain is not able to register all that I've heard and read in English, so I recall less than what I heard or read in French. So I thought this would be a good occasion to revise all, one and for all, one year later.

For me what I learned from Murray’s trial is sooooo imortant. We really learned a lot of things, (Thank you so much, Mr Wagren, Miss Brazil, Dr Shafer, Dr Steinberg, Dr Kamangar and all other persons who had been on witness stand ), although not everything has been said and mysteries still remain. And also thanks to the trial, I could make a step forward in my grieving process.

I thought I had REAL friends I could count on... They were also MJ fans so I thought NO ONE would 'protest' if I told them how I really FELT... Boy, was I wrong? They didn't CARE about me... I was treated as an 'outcast' for gaining a 'disability' :doh: and this hurt me really deep...
I thought MJ fans in 'general' were 'Michael like'... You know... Nice, kind, caring...

For a long time I believed that ALL MJ fans were Michael-like. :yes: But one day I realized it was only a myth or my false belief. Facing the reality, I was surprised and disappointed… On two forums that I had known before coming here, it was terrible, :doh: people was ‘killing each other’ in aggressive, selfish and malicious way, :spor: :hunter: I saw all the negative sides of human nature. :brow: I was in a state of shock :huh: because it was not anyone but MJ fans !! :brow: and especially because I had no doubt before that all the MJ fans were MJ-like, and to them to become Michael-like is something most natural, :yes: no, I was too naive. :nooo:
Since then, I have no illusions and I don’t care. :mello: Here on MJJC, I have 'not yet' been attacked ;D, I have not yet received pathetic VM or PM, :fist: but even if it started, I don’t mind. I'm immune right now ;D

 

[Sunflowers]

For a long time I believed that ALL MJ fans were Michael-like. :yes: But one day I realized it was only a myth or my false belief. Facing the reality, I was surprised and disappointed… On two forums that I had known before coming here, it was terrible, :doh: people was ‘killing each other’ in aggressive, selfish and malicious way, :spor: :hunter: I saw all the negative sides of human nature. :brow: I was in a state of shock :huh: because it was not anyone but MJ fans !! :brow: and especially because I had no doubt before that all the MJ fans were MJ-like, and to them to become Michael-like is something most natural, :yes: no, I was too naive. :nooo:
Since then, I have no illusions and I don’t care. :mello: Here on MJJC, I have 'not yet' been attacked ;D, I have not yet received pathetic VM or PM, :fist: but even if it started, I don’t mind. I'm immune right now ;D

I think we all found out the hard way that not all MJ fans are Michael-like. Some are plain out mean. But I still believe that a TRUE Michael fan is also Michael-like. But you do have to like more then his music. Because some fans maybe don't really get the message like we do.
Only just recently I got attacked on an FB page for MJ collectors. Only because I made a small mistake in a comment about the origine of an item. Made me realize why I never join any other sites anymore. I'lls tick to MJJC

 

[Daryll748]

I think we all found out the hard way that not all MJ fans are Michael-like. Some are plain out mean. But I still believe that a TRUE Michael fan is also Michael-like. But you do have to like more then his music. Because some fans maybe don't really get the message like we do.
Only just recently I got attacked on an FB page for MJ collectors. Only because I made a small mistake in a comment about the origine of an item. Made me realize why I never join any other sites anymore. I'lls tick to MJJC

Been an MJ fan for 30 years NOW :blink: I've indeed 'learnt' it the tough way but I guess that's the ONLY way we really 'learn' stuff... :agree:

Then again, ONLY a % of fans are 'mean' and haven't 'learnt' of have just forgotten it due their grief how to be Michael like and I FEELS so :better: when you do meet another 'Michael like' fan...

YEAH, MJJC ROCKS unk:Did you know? heehee...

 

[laeticia.fr]

Rereading the interview with Marcel Marceau in 1996 on another thread, I thought that if this great French mime was so favorable to him, of course it’s because he had the opportunity to have a friendship with Michael and to work with him. In any case, everything he says is French people’s general opinion about Michael. I think he might even have said the same thing without actually knowing Michael. -_-

It is my deep and sincere belief that Michael Jackson is a good person, a nice guy with an incredible burden, a responsibility that carries on his shoulders. They say it's becoming more and more white, but from my point of view, this is not a problem. I think he has the right to create any mythical character theatrical decision. Not only in the scene but also on television. In any case, he does not deny being black. All kinds of absurd rumors are created around Michael. I think most of them have been created by malicious people, just to make money behind it. I know this is very difficult for him, and I understand why.

 

[Daryll748]

ARGH, I know :bored2:
Peeps with talent get slandered out of Jealousy :beee: