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ItsNotTrue

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I'm sorry. I thought I was coping. I thought by joining in and talking would help me, but it's not. I feel absolutely heartbroken. My life is not going good either and I miss Michael so so much. I don't understand it when people tell you not to harm yourself because "Michael wouldn't want it". Am I suppose to live a life full of heartache and pain with the mere thoughts of "it's not what Michael would have wanted"? How can I live just for that? He's probably happy now, and that's what I want to be. I want to be happy with Michael. I can't bare another day knowing he's not living with us anymore. I want to believe he's in hiding. But he's not. He's gone and his sweet smile and laugh are gone too. I want to be with Michael. I want to be free of pain like him...
 
Please do not hurt yourself.
I know you just addressed this and how you didn't understand why we would say this, but please do not do anything to harm yourself.
Im worried about you as a fellow MJ fan, and judging by the title of your post, you are considering doing something drastic.
Remember we are all here to listen. If you want to go on some mad rant, PM me and i'll happily listen.
Please be sensible :(
 
I feel you...especially several days ago, I felt exactly the same!
But, now, I feel a little better. Although the pain is still there, and I am never the same again, at least I feel I can handle it more or less...
please hang in here, and trust me, as time goes by, this pain will ease.

We are all here with you to go on!
 
Yes please don't hurt yourself. I was once suicidal myself. It was a promise I had made to myself in December of 95 when I was 15 years old. When Michael was really sick in the hospital that I was going to kill myself. If something horrible should ever happen to him. Because I just couldn't bare the mere thought of living in a world without him in it. And I was going to go through with it. Until I realize Michael would not want his fans killing themselves over him. So please do not kill yourself Michael would not want his fans doing that. Plus if you kill yourself you are not going to be with Michael like you think. I was brought up as a Brethren. And in my religion we believe you will go to hell if you kill yourself. Only God should have the right to take someone's life. I know you are hurting all of us fans are. But you just have to hang in there. Like I am trying to do.
 
Please. Dont hurt yourself.. Michael did not want it!! ;(
Someday I will die because of him but the same time I said to myself that MJ did not want me to kill myself.. Im going to be strong.
 
Oh no, I'm really hoping you haven't done anything drastic! Please talk to us for a while? Any of us? We care. We say michael wouldn't want this because he wouldn't! He would be so devastated. I know this hurts immensely but please hang on, don't do anything rash just now? Please reply!
 
Michael would NOT want you to do anything to harm yourself! I'm sure of it! Please get some professional counseling to help you through this crisis, ok? And/or call one of the suicide hotlines posted in this forum.

We all feel your pain. It will not always hurt this much. . it really won't. Please keep talking to us here. Just get through today. And then tomorrow. And the next.

love,

Victoria
 
I know what you mean. Day and night I think about him. My heart aches with love and pain. I don't know how I'm supposed to live like this, but I know I'm not to die because of this either. Michael went through a lot of emotional pain in his life too, far more than many of us, and he persevered. He was even asked once if he'd consider suicide and he said no because he loved life. I wish I had his strength, but every time I think I can't cope I remind myself of what he said and what he endured and it helps give me a little more strength to hold on.
 
No, I'm still here...so far. I've been crying uncontrollably. I know you say in time the pain will get better. But how can it? In months or years I'm still going to be missing Michael just as much as I am now. I hate this world. It's a horrible place with the most horrible people in it. Michael is in heaven, surrounded by only love and happiness. Why should I remain here when I can be happy in heaven too? Here's an example. If a poor man on the street was given the choice to eat a small cupcake, or a big delicious meal, which would he choose? Of course the meal, the satisfy him and fill him up because he's so hungry. That's how I feel. I want to be satisfied. And if I can choose to live in this horrible world or a place full of love and happiness, I would want the second right? I'm so confused. I am just hurting so much.
 
^ we're all feeling the same so we can relate to each other.. thats what we're here for.. to support each other.

We are family!

*hugs*
 
I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I am in tears as I read your posts and the responses to you because I can't imagine the pain u are feeling. We all miss him, but everyone is right, Michael would be devastated if you did anything to harm yourself, so please don't do anything like that. I know it's impossible to believe but it WILL get better. It WILL.
 
ItsNotTrue said:
No, I'm still here...so far. I've been crying uncontrollably. I know you say in time the pain will get better. But how can it? In months or years I'm still going to be missing Michael just as much as I am now. I hate this world. It's a horrible place with the most horrible people in it. Michael is in heaven, surrounded by only love and happiness. Why should I remain here when I can be happy in heaven too? Here's an example. If a poor man on the street was given the choice to eat a small cupcake, or a big delicious meal, which would he choose? Of course the meal, the satisfy him and fill him up because he's so hungry. That's how I feel. I want to be satisfied. And if I can choose to live in this horrible world or a place full of love and happiness, I would want the second right? I'm so confused. I am just hurting so much.
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The pain does not get better, what happens is you learn to live with it. I never thought I would live in a world without Michael. However, I know he would not want you to do anything to yourself. He would be horrified if you did, think of the pain you will cause him.

Be strong, please PM me if you wanna talk.
 
hey remember to get to heaven to be with Michael, you can't commit suicide
dont know if that will help you to find the courage to continue on with life ?

Please be strong, Michael would want you to be, and so do all of us, dont hurt yourself pleaseeee !
 
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I'm not sure I'm allowed to post this but please go to a page on the web called Suicide: Read This First. Can I post the link? I know it's an outside page but it has helped me countless times.
 
ItsNotTrue said:
No, I'm still here...so far. I've been crying uncontrollably. I know you say in time the pain will get better. But how can it? In months or years I'm still going to be missing Michael just as much as I am now. I hate this world. It's a horrible place with the most horrible people in it. Michael is in heaven, surrounded by only love and happiness. Why should I remain here when I can be happy in heaven too? Here's an example. If a poor man on the street was given the choice to eat a small cupcake, or a big delicious meal, which would he choose? Of course the meal, the satisfy him and fill him up because he's so hungry. That's how I feel. I want to be satisfied. And if I can choose to live in this horrible world or a place full of love and happiness, I would want the second right? I'm so confused. I am just hurting so much.
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ItsNotTrue I am sorry for all the pain you're feeling. We're here to share the pain and all that... to make it at least not kill us. We don't wanna lose anyone from the fan community. It helps us to hold on. We hope it will help us to keep Michaels legacy. I tend to agree with those that I do not believe Michael would wanted for any of his fans to commit suicide. He always seemed to have a great love for life.
But yeah life can be cruel at times... wow I just got a lesson about that... and yes it can hurt incredible... still it's all we know, isn't it? Please think again and ask yourself honestly if you know for sure that suicide is the way to reach a place of love and happiness?
Yes it hurts, it does very much... but we need eachother here. I don't know the reason still... and I don't know if the pain will get better or if we'll learn to live with it... but please be honest to yourself... there is help available. for everything you're probably caught up in at the moment.
Please think again if you really want to give up what you at least do know for something what you can't know... don't leave us alone here.
Every fan is so precious. You are so precious.
Please call someone for help. Or if you don't know anyone you would like to talk with then the helplines maybe can help you...
http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/showthread.php?p=2025744#post2025744

You're of cuz also welcome to pm me!!! Please take your time and think again... no hurry needed in this!
 
Please hang on in there, every Michael Jackson fan is special, and I'm sure he would NOT want you to die, he would want you to be proud of his achievements and to help continue and to protect his legacy and his children.

I know it's difficult at the moment (believe us, a lot of us on here know) but we are all here for each other, we musn't do drastic things because everything is so fresh in our minds/hearts at the moment and you will regret it if you so something silly.

Please just keep talking to us on here, and take one step at a time .. slowly but surely..
 
taking your life is not an answer to pain. it will only cause more pain for those that care for you. If you believe in the scriptures, killing yourself will not lead to less pain for you either, only more.

Please seek the guidance of people skilled to deal with this type of situation ...

United States Suicide hotlines, by state

http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

International suicide hotlines

http://suicidehotlines.com/international.html

This is a good website with valuable information about coping with grief. Addresses issues such as, what can you expect; how long does grief last, and others.

http://www.caringinfo.org/GrievingALoss
 
Please do not do anything bad to yourself, and remember that MJ would not want it... Imagine how he would feel if he knew what you were considering doing?? We all hurt, but ending life is not going to help anything... Life is a gift, and something you have to fight for, not something to give up on when things feel bad and hopeless...
 
Hay hunny i just wanted to send hugs and truely i know how u feel so much there r also personal reason why i dont want to be here as well but michael not being here that has just topped it to the limit,hunny can u not speak to a dr or something?not to sure how old u r?but there is help always just when u feel this way u feel 100% alone i know that for sure as i feel that now,wish i could give u more answers but its hard when u r feeling that as well,sending huggles hunny xxx
 
I really am touched that so many people here care. I don't know if this is the right place to talk about such things, but I don't know where else to post and talk about it. But I've been reading up a lot about depression and I've figured out that it's what I have.

I circled all of the symptoms that I feel daily and it scares me to know that I'm suffering from depression. How I have no desire to live, no desire to do anything. See no point to life when it's just going to end eventually for all of us. http://i623.photobucket.com/albums/tt316/RobertPattinson2/Picture2-3.png?t=1247942892

I don't want to talk to family or friends about it, because they won't understand, and I don't want to get professional help either...I don't know how to deal with all of these problems. I know you've all been telling me "things will get better" and "the pain will ease". But how do I overcome all of these symptoms by myself? I want to, but I don't know how. You guys are the only people I can talk to.
 
ItsNotTrue said:
I really am touched that so many people here care. I don't know if this is the right place to talk about such things, but I don't know where else to post and talk about it. But I've been reading up a lot about depression and I've figured out that it's what I have.

I circled all of the symptoms that I feel daily and it scares me to know that I'm suffering from depression. How I have no desire to live, no desire to do anything. See no point to life when it's just going to end eventually for all of us. http://i623.photobucket.com/albums/tt316/RobertPattinson2/Picture2-3.png?t=1247942892

I don't want to talk to family or friends about it, because they won't understand, and I don't want to get professional help either...I don't know how to deal with all of these problems. I know you've all been telling me "things will get better" and "the pain will ease". But how do I overcome all of these symptoms by myself? I want to, but I don't know how. You guys are the only people I can talk to.
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Hay hunny
I myself have serve mental health problems was dignosed at 16,i dont really want to go into wat there r in here as i have found i get judge alot,my advice hunny is u need to go to ur dr and ask if he can refer u to see someone,i have a psych dr who i see every few wks at the mo also there is counsilers avaible hun,how old r u? sending hugs xxx
 
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