Every time I was sad and crying my eyes out over missing Michael, I would happen to glance into my garden and at that very moment a white butterfly would appear. It felt so comforting somehow. This happened just a few months ago, and now at crazy moments when I ride my bicycle to work I ask to see a butterfly and poof - there appears a white butterfly when I ask for it. I don't know how or why this happened but it happened a number of times, last time I just laughed out loud.
It may not sound like much, but it gives me comfort. Cos sometimes I still feel very sad.
I have created two blogs about more significant things that happened to me: I meditate, which started with the MLP, I had never done this before, so I wasn't sure if I was doing it "right" but some amazing things have happened: Michael asked me to send a comforting letter to his mother when she was extremely sad ( Feb 2010, ten days later it was in the news that she was sad - duh!).
One of the blogs is about red roses - in my meditation Michael told me to watch for the sign of the red rose - I received a red rose sign 5 times within two weeks.
The other blog is about a dream I had in march 2004 about a key I received with which I was able to open a door. Then I bought "Never Can Say Goodbye" and saw the key of my dream in that book ( I keep a dream diary)
Another thing that happened Feb 2011 was : my old car was giving me headaches. An orange light would sometimes burn by itself and go out again. Several things had been replaced but to no avail. I never knew when the orange light would start burning. Then, as I was driving along on the highway I noticed a hectometer sign that said 52,5 and I said aloud "Michael, now you would have been 52 years old and 5 months plus ". At that very moment I spoke those words the orange light started burning.
A month later, i was driving on the highway again and I said "Ok,Michael if the orange light doesn't burn I will donate to Save the Children. If it burns I will donate to the nature conservancy". I hoped to influence matters and hoped that the light wouldn't burn, because it is distracting when you're driving, especially when it gets dark. At that moment the orange lght started burning so i donated money to the Nature Conservancy. When I told a friend about this, she exclaimed: So did you know then that Save the Children UK doesn't want any donations in Michael's name ? I said "No, ugh, you're kidding me right ?" "No, I'm not kidding, this is serious." "Well, then I guess it's a good thing that the orange light started burning then."
I now write down the special things that have happened, that could be chalked to coincidence I guess, depending on your point of view, in my dream diary. It's just little things, but it puts a smile on my face and helps me cope.