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Im wondering if im the only one that can't feel joy and happines
when i hear Michael's music?

I miss Michael soooo much and i just cant jump around smiling and having fun like i have seen many fans do for the last few weeks.

Am i the only one that feels like this ???

Im not saying its wrong that others are happy to hear Michaels music,
i'm just wondering when i feel my happines again :(


Ill miss you foerver my :angel: Michael.
 
I think it it depends on the person, some people just take longer, I still feel agony over his passing but I recently started to listen to his music and feel joy again, his music makes me feel stronger, just give it time.
 
Most of us felt terrible.. I've slowly recovered, by hanging around with friends.. Now I feel okay, even though some of that sadness is still there..
But we should be happy that we got to experience the talent of MJ.

Better to have felt and lost, then to never have felt..

Listening to his songs on loop again, makes me realise this
 
His music always makes me happy. It's everything else that's killing me.
 
I'm no better than I was on June 25th.

I can't listen to his music, especially the happy tracks. I've forced myself to listen to the likes of WYBT, HTW, WATW and a few slow tracks, but really, I currently feel numb towards them, which worries me slightly.
 
I dont know how you guys are... But whenever I listen to a happy song like ''We're almost there'' I start off by smiling and singing along but then collapse into heavy crying... All the joyful songs endup in tears..
 
i cannot listen to his music without sobbing so i decided not to listen to it until i can handle it. but surely hapiness is gone. will it ever come bacK? i dont know..
 
I can listen to his music (except 'Gone Too Soon' I can't listen to that without crying yet). I can dance to his music and actually feel happy... but then when I least expect it - the grief just seems to come out of nowhere and I'm in floods of tears again. This happend tonight just as I was so sure I was starting to feel better. :(
 
my waking thoughts are still of him. i rush to log in here to read the latest entries on him, while googling him at the same time, and just yesterday,i felt some sort of panic because there wasn't much news about him anymore. it used to be that when i refresh google, it would always come up with new search results, even in a matter of seconds. but yesterday, i would refresh and it would be the same things. it dawned on me that sometime soon, there'd really be nothing new anymore...

the sadness is still here, but it helps when i pray for him and ask God to let him know how much he is loved here on earth. basically, it's talking to God about him that helps me. it helps me to realize that no matter how he died, and as regretful as it was, the time has really come for him to go back home. that was the main reason he died. something like what Stevie Wonder said, that though we may still need him, God needed him more. maybe to put an end to his earthly sufferings, too. he has effectively spread God's message of love all over the world - not just through his music, but through the words that come out of his mouth when he is interviewed, and even more forcefully through his actions - and his mission is over. he could only do so much for a world that was deaf and which ridiculed his good intentions. if he is in heavenly bliss, and i'm sure he is because of all the good things he has done and the purity of his heart, then my sadness is all worth it.

i can listen to his songs and enjoy them, but ironically, Smile would always make me cry.
 
I am the same way. Though I am feeling back to the way I was a few days ago. But much earlier today and all of yesterday and Thursday. I was back to the way I was a day after I had heard the horrible news. I am listening to some of my favorite MJ songs now. Right now it is Stranger In Moscow. I had always love that song. Mainly because it is the only song of Michael's that I can really relate to. But the are still songs of Michael I can't seem to listen just yet. Because I just find it too hard to listen to them. And I want to listen to them and I can't. Especially his one song You Are Not Alone. I only listen to that song once since he died. But I was crying so hard as I was listening to that song. That there is no way I could ever listen to that song again. Not for a good while. But it was a song of his that I really needed to hear at the time. I have been trying to do better in the past week or so. But then I was back to the way I was. I made it even worst for myself when I decided to watch Michael's Earth Song performance from the 96 WMAs. I had taped the entire awards show back then. But that performance has made me cry every single time that I see it. Especially towards the end of that performance. That to me is one of the best performances he has ever done. As much as I love that performance I just find it so hard to watch it. Which is why I very rarily watch that performance. But the one part of that award show that makes me laugh and smile. Is when Diana Ross goes over to Michael and sits on his lap. I just love the cute look on Michael's face when she did that. I thank god I have all of my MJ stuff that I had either taped, bought, or downloaded over the years. Because it helps remind me of how Michael used to be. And thats what I love seeing. Even though it still makes me miss him. And I still do cry over him like I was doing in the past couple of days. But those videos also reminds me of why I love Michael so extremely much. And stayed loyal fan of his for over 25 years.
 
Thank you so much to all of you who wrote a messages to me, it ment a lot and made me cry a great deal but i know im not alone in my grief.

I hope that the day i can hear Michaels music again and feel happy will come to me real soon cuz i miss hearing his voice again, but right now its sooo painfull.
 
my heart was still cry too. the truth always hurts people, and so hard to accept.
it's not the time problem, is we lose the legend, michael jackson. and it will not have anyone like michael again anymore in the future. he's just the one, no one can repalced him~~
RIP MJ forever...
 
MJsCinderella said:
Im wondering if im the only one that can't feel joy and happines
when i hear Michael's music?

I miss Michael soooo much and i just cant jump around smiling and having fun like i have seen many fans do for the last few weeks.

Am i the only one that feels like this ???

Im not saying its wrong that others are happy to hear Michaels music,
i'm just wondering when i feel my happines again :(


Ill miss you foerver my :angel: Michael.
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i feel exactly the same....................................i have been a fan for 27 years and this is the longest i have gone without watching him or listening to his music, i just get too upset at the moment
 
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ameliajayne said:
i feel exactly the same....................................i have been a fan for 27 years and this is the longest i have gone without watching him or listening to his music, i just get too upset at the moment
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Ive been a fan for 27 years too and i feel like... i dont know if i can explane it but like 27 years have been riped out of my life... ohh no i cant explane it but i hurt soooo much.

Im glad im not the only one that cant bare to listen to Michael's music
at the moment but i sure hope that within a few month i can jump around
and going crazy over him again.

But thank you all so much itmeens a lot to me to read how many of you feels the same way as i do.

Oh by the way they show the Martin BaSHIT interview on danish tv right now and i cant even see that pice of SH** program :no:
 
MJsCinderella said:
:no:

Ive been a fan for 27 years too and i feel like... i dont know if i can explane it but like 27 years have been riped out of my life... ohh no i cant explane it but i hurt soooo much.


totally with you on that one..................i know it must sound extreme to some people but i feel exactly like that and i know anyone else who has followed him for so long feels the same

Im glad im not the only one that cant bare to listen to Michael's music
at the moment but i sure hope that within a few month i can jump around
and going crazy over him again.

But thank you all so much itmeens a lot to me to read how many of you feels the same way as i do.

Oh by the way they show the Martin BaSHIT interview on danish tv right now and i cant even see that pice of SH** program :no:
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same here, it was on uk tv but i didn't watch. i am ok .....sort of.......looking at pictures but not ready for the videos or songs yet. never thought there would come a day when i wasn't wanting to hear that voice but its too sad:(
 
For me it's different every day, some days I can feel okey but the next day I feel terrible, the pain is still around but somedays it's easier to deal with.
 
yeah you're right. time will heal but we have only had three weeks. aaaw love your siggy picture
 
for me, the music triggered tears and i let those tears pour. Where ever i was, in my room, in the yard, walking the dog, at the grocery store, in the drive-thru(been in the drive-thru alot since the 25th), in the mall ...where ever i was, i let the emotions out. People looked at me like WTF but some people knew why i was crying. There were people that came up to me and understood. They cried with me. For the most part I can control myself now, after allowing all the emotions out at first. Still there are times I can't and it flows out again. But it has become easier to listen or hear Michael's music without turning into a blubbering goober.

That doesn't mean the emotions are completely gone though. I do my best to keep it together around the kids. However, every night I have my moment with my son. We go to the back yard at dusk and wait for the first star. Donye says goodnight to Michael and smiles at the sky...I lose it, becoming a pile of snot and tears. He tells me "it's OK". Like he is the Daddy, telling me that "Michael is free now. He wouldn't want you to cry, smile Chichi."

yeah, i am a mess :lol: i know :D
 
MJJChichi said:
for me, the music triggered tears and i let those tears pour. Where ever i was, in my room, in the yard, walking the dog, at the grocery store, in the drive-thru(been in the drive-thru alot since the 25th), in the mall ...where ever i was, i let the emotions out. People looked at me like WTF but some people knew why i was crying. There were people that came up to me and understood. They cried with me. For the most part I can control myself now, after allowing all the emotions out at first. Still there are times I can't and it flows out again. But it has become easier to listen or hear Michael's music without turning into a blubbering goober.

That doesn't mean the emotions are completely gone though. I do my best to keep it together around the kids. However, every night I have my moment with my son. We go to the back yard at dusk and wait for the first star. Donye says goodnight to Michael and smiles at the sky...I lose it, becoming a pile of snot and tears. He tells me "it's OK". Like he is the Daddy, telling me that "Michael is free now. He wouldn't want you to cry, smile Chichi."

yeah, i am a mess :lol: i know :D
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This is me right now :cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry:
 
Went out sat up my brothers and felt fine all weekend until i got back and started thinking mj thoughts.
have not talked to anyone about how i feel because iam too private too let my emotions out.
One thing for sure,there is no quick fix and the grieving will take a long time.
But were all in the same boat,so talking about this here can only help.
I do feel for some fans here because there taking it harder than others.
And they just need to remember that we are here too listen and help them in any way we can.
 
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