This is really terribly disturbing. ...
To read how Faye keeps ganging on Michael being in 'denial' and finding "escape" in 'drugs' (again, this association instantly points to being hooked on recreation drugs when they say it like that)... This is so infuriating, so unfair. How dare these people come out now and spew damaging crap like that? He had a very difficult life, yet he was really strong, but they wanna paint him as a helpless drug addict?// I don't freakin' care what all these people think, they should keep whatever their perception of Michael is to themselves!... If the AEG pressures are true - which they are - the problem lies with AEG! And the fact that they didn't care enough or rather at all to move back the concerts, to leave them as they originally were at least, or do some more postponements, if not cancellations, but all they cared about was their money. So you try to do something more concrete about that, you expose them or something, don’t know.. But not what she does now, for instance.
I don't wanna hear so-called friends and people (regardless if they love him or not, or Precisely because they claim to love him) Confiding to the press and the fan on social networking sites that Michael was this and that, and had monetary troubles, to be mild, you don't do that. You're burying that dead person downer than they are already. You don't take photos of his cript, you don't give gruesome details to the press, you don't say Michael took comfort in drugs. The freak he did that! He wasn't addicted to medication when he passed, it was Murray who eventually pumped him to death and killed him by administering diprivan and not monitoring him and covering for his tracks. That's what went down for real. Instead of pretending/ or even being in cloud nine when typing things like "Michael is amazing", or "I can't wait to go to London", you do whatever it takes that others don't end up killing him. For yeah: it was People that did, and had done over an over for decades, and it then happened for good. it wasn't his "drug escapism" crap that did that. I would like to know what all of these judging ignorants would do if they were Michael, and 'cornered', as some say he was, and am sure he was. But am curious to envision what they would hypothetically do when pressured from All sides, like he was, esp the last months of his life. Like really... When he didn't know where to turn to, because at every chance and minute everyone would want something from him, a piece of him, a glimpse of him - a real oppressive obssession to be going through that, yet he was still a man more than most could hope to be, with his loving, meek, but firm at times, behavior regarding others. Why are those same ones outraged that he cut ties with them? how in the world could one single person deal with them all, with all the crap, with all of the bogus lawsuits, with all that greed? And they're mentioning him seeking comfort in drugs. He had children, he was a hands-on father, and, doggone, I would've resorted to some prescribed painkillers myself if I had been in his shoes. No, I would've died, actually, my heart would've bursted, and it still has very often.. . Only.. only that there were No painkillers in his system, No painkillers in his some, just sleep medication and some anti-depressants mostly. His blood tests came out just fine in February that year, according to his nurse. His many many many serious problems that accentuated with that fateful, stupid tour accentuated his insomnia. He was a man, nevertheless, that doesn't make him a helpless mindless kid, he was trying to sleep, that is a vital action for survival, having tried anything before, and he really did what he could in such extreme, very extreme instances. He wanted to sleep Precisely so he could be up the next morning for his children, and for the rehearsals. ..
'Oh, I could have saved him'.... ... Simply loathe formulations of this kind..... I'd really really like to see what would anyone would have doe had they been in Jackson's shoes. What would a real friend do, like really, and not to mention when they're gone, would they bury him more under with almost every word they say?... His escapism was in his children and music and loving, not in the freakin' 'drugs' as they call them, or he would've died decades before, but he was human enough to feel the real pains he had and act on them like every other human being would do. He wasn't a robot, he was a fighter all of his life, not even eulogizing him, am really serious when I say that that he was a real man. A hands-on father, a consummate entertainer who was involved in virtually every single aspect of his work, i.e. for This Is It... wow.. So, he was even working. Working a lot. Working very hard, like he'd say, 'for you', for the fans, for... don't even know what to add further.. This is really vexing. He worked, not got fixed and pretended he lived in another world, he'd call people at night, 3 weeks before he passed, he called someone regarding the release of 2 journalists in China, he worried about the welfare of others, he wished them Happy Father's Day only a few days before, he ordered and expected commissioned paintings and books, paintings of him and his 3 children, he was so very active and focused, he worked on a new studio album, on a classic album, had film plans..... and the list goes on and on. And some people... that are supposed to know him better than those too aloof to make a difference, in the end, actually dare saying he was going down, he was in denial, he was living in his own world drugged up, when he accepted doing some shows (certainly not the 50 ones, I don't care what anyone says anymore, plenty of evidence for that anyway) for his Own children, who never saw him perform live, for them. And, if he was on it, for wanting to spread the message of love, being aware of his influence, being aware of him being wanted back on the stage, so why not come out with something not just entertaining, but educational?... His problems were Other people, companies, managers and former managers, the bogus lawsuits, the problems lied surrounding him, not gonna speculate further of his inner world, that is his and nobody has got the right to judge it given all the unfriendly circumstances.
Finally, nobody that were supposed to be his friends, have the right and should not be sharing their warped perceptions of him which they take as facts, and destroy his name, eventually, by that, which is what they do. They do. ... They should know better and stop placing themselves in this holier than thou category, for I don't care how much they cared/care for him, their attitude is plain wrong and damaging to Jackson. He's not even here, nobody can listen to his side of it all anyway, so they should shut... up. Faye blamed Jackson in the worst of his days for not being involved with MJJSource, although that was not up to him to do that, but to his brother and staff, and certainly not during one's worst days of fighting for their freedom, for their life, for their exoneration.... Yet Michael, the ever forgiver, contacted her again. And this is what she keeps on doing..? .............
This has ruined a whole day... *breathes, tries to calm down...*
