The bad parts of this interview… Her mentioning the 1995 collapse, and her displaying such a lack of knowledge, empathy, and reason altogether, for she said the collapse was due to drugs. Not ‘cause of overworking himself and dedicating himself for the many people he was going to entertain and have a responsibility to. No, non of that.
Then her mentioning injections and all the discussion about that, alluding/if not, screaming of addictions.
The fact that only him dying made her realize who he really was, what was lost..
The reason she gave for ending her marriage with Michael: she says it was her telling to chose between drugs and ‘empires’, and her. That was pride involved, she’s full of pride, and the reason the marriage ended was because his heart couldn’t bare the betrayal he suffered because she didn’t want to be the mother of his children.
The Elvis-Michael parallel, and how their fate was the same. Off again, and wrong again. I won’t redelve into it. The fact that she now speaks “with utmost respect and love” now about him, and didn’t do it when he was alive.
How she repeatedly says that “I’ve never felt so high and intoxicated in my life”, “I’ve never felt that way about any other human being, except for my father”. How must her husband feel when he hears that, however understanding and sympathetic and kind one can be. How one feels when hearing such things? How she said that the other dates in his life were never profound. How would she know that? Diana Ross, for instance, was the love of his life, his first love, which he very often admitted.
If, when accepting to marry Michael and after, she felt her marriage was going to last forever, how could she think they could be together without creating their own family? How could she think he would not want children, when he loved them more than anything else in the world? For him to be that endearing and when with him, you felt like taking care of him, as she says, how could she, as a wife, not want to start a family with him, if she loved him so much? How she says him having Debbie’s children was a retaliating thing on behalf of him. How could that be, when he was so hurt, and found a friend of many years willing to make him a father. He was beyond hurt, and, on top of that, aching to be a father and mother and show them the love he never really felt. He had children with a good friend, not just a somebody else, since Lisa wasn’t willing. I understand her hurt, but the love for purity was stronger and it triumphed. That is too rare a quality. It was good to hear her say “I understand him so well now”… and that “He, honestly, tried so hard and went through so much with me and I know now when I look back”, and that “I really admire him that he gave it a real shot’. Despite her being so full of pride and stubborn, Michael was still trying to give her a chance, like he gave everything a chance. Why realize this now? I know I say, ‘Better late than never’. But he needed to hear those words for himself. He hungered for the simplicity of the depth of such moments, they held him and nurtured him, the little things.
Then the ‘drugs and doctors’ thing again. How could she be not even opinionated, but certain when speaking of his drug use and all? Saying he was ‘high as a kite’, or that he didn’t have a straight head, for instance.. Why would you say that? Doesn’t she care about what his children would feel when/if they listen to her talking of her deceased father that way, who can’t have his say now? In the Bashir documentary, and some other times, he wasn’t high, or high on recreational drugs. He wasn’t trying to get a fix. Those were side effects from painkillers, for the various pains he had, and there’s no proof that he abused them as in 1993. And if he did for a while, would it kill these people to show empathy? Would it kill Lisa Marie, a well-known former drug abuser, to show empathy, and to understand the kind of life he had, that other people wouldn’t be able to survive? And he lived it, with a smile, as well, no matter how broken. Children and innocence held him. But coldness and pride, the coldness and pride of other… that must have killed him so much. Coldness and pride and indifference always kill so much.
Or the fact that she honestly can’t say/doesn’t think he’s innocent for sure, because she wasn’t in that room and all that pitiful explanation and counterfeited profoundness. Is that how much she knew him? Is that how she wants people to remember him? Did she forget she is not actually sitting before a therapist in privacy, where one is free and urged to come clean about their feelings? I don’t care what she thinks, as well as I don’t care what others think, personally, but when choosing to speak for the public to see, you would, somehow, choose your words more carefully.
It is my humble opinion, based on all that, and the way she talks and the vibe I get from her is that her thinking is quite simplistic for somebody her age. She is starting to mature, she learned to admit to some mistakes, but she lacks serious basic things. She not once spoke about Michael’s feelings, or his pains, his joys. Just about her feelings and her perspective of him. Michael didn’t have a say in all this, he wasn’t present in all this, it was actually a hostile ghost or someone aloof and breakable. But not Michael. People keep loving to repeat how Michael was imperfect. He was imperfect, and everyone is, and everyone should know this and stop repeating it to avoid making a point weak. But he had an angelic soul and a sensitive soul, and that is that. That makes the whole difference.
I forgave her. She admitted some wrongdoing, and, even if she didn’t, I can’t throw rocks into someone who could use help dealing with life and their person. She is still a child mentally in a way, and her mind is full of confusion. She can have a good heart. But she has much more to do, and that is turn to God more. Before watching the interview… it hit me again in the heart like a steel rock: Michael’s absence. It hit hard again and something very close to June 25 happened to me. And after the interview was over… I was in pain again, over how some people, unfortunately many, were blessed/are blessed with so much, the best of life, and yet be so unhappy or ungrateful… Lisa has/had the best: her father, a talented, beautiful man, with a good heart, her current husband, a wonderful, selfless person, two new wonders of children… and Michael. This cuts so deep how unappreciative we can be, especially when we need to be. I didn't even want to ever post on a public forum again, but I feel like in a whirlwind of emptiness just thinking about all these hurtful things, like, they can’t be real..