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TwinkleDust

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Im finding it very hard to be here today. Seeing all the names especially. I'm finding it also very difficut to follow the legal happenings. I could read almost anything during the trial bc i knew he'd have redemption. I knew he was strong and was fighting and if we all held out long enough the truth woud surface and he would be ok. But now, I doesnt matter how much effort i put into it, he wont be ok. He's gone. He was a hope and my light. I understand it sounds pathetic I understand that as the public's interest fades, im gonna be labled even crazier than i was b4 but its just the way my heart feels. I wanna go to where he is. Im bored with earth anyway. I'm bored with my life and "the future" blah. This hit me hard today for some reason. im not suicidal...just saying I need to find some new hope and light. but overall, meh. i'm lost.
 
Don't know if you were just venting. But want to say that I understand your finding it difficult. It's incredibly hard to try and process all of this, it's too over whelming.

I too have felt very lonely since June, it's why I came back into the fan community, desperately seeking out people who I knew would be feeling the same, hopefully make some friends to relieve the loneliness.

We're all in this together now, always. x
 
I know what you mean I don't see any happy future things either not only b/c of Michael but my life overall is just so lonely and boring.
I guess I'll just keep on going taking it day by day.
 
Just have to take it all day by day! Try and find some meaning in your life, something you love again! The reason im happy here on earth is because i no im loved, i have such lovely family round me and such caring friends! Whenever i feel theres no point to it all i think of them! And that love is stronger than any loneliness i feel! Do the same! Stay strong! Im praying for everyones hearts to heal! :)
 
We are all griefing :(
Just give it sometime, surround yourself in the things and people you love. Your heart won't ever be totally healed but it will get easier.
 
I feel the same...it's hard...

Sending out L.O.V.E. to everyone..we must continue to spread Michael's love :heart:

:huggy:
 
I'm going to be honest I feel like crap too, I feel like depression is taking over again, I want my Michael back...
sometimes I feel so brave but sometimes I just feel like sh*t
 
You don,t sound pathetic at all!
it,s your heart speaking out the struggle........

And no ones tells us when this pain will get easier, i can not say that i know when you will feel better or when you will find new inspiration to go on.
But i do know that we are loving you......and love is a good medicine for a wounded heart.......

*hug*
 
I know what you mean. I'm not suicidal either but so many times I've just thought damn...I'm so bored with Earth...and it's so empty here without him. I wish I could be where he is.

His music helps to get me through though...it still lifts me up and brings joy to my heart...they're like dreams, when listening I go to another world and am just surrounded by Michael and his love. So he stays with me in that way. And of course, being here with so many who understand...who are going through the same thing, who love Michael as much as I do...this little "family" that I've gained on this board is like a special gift that he left behind. He lives in all of us and so when we come together - it's magic...it's Michael.

Much love to you :huggy:
 
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