D.Electric
Proud Member
(NB. I hope that none thinks that is in bad taste given the news of Michael.Mania, but I felt i had to reach out to you all.)
I am shaking as I write this, but know that this thread has been started with pure and devoted intentions.
I am opening myself as a hotline to those of you who feel you need help. I am in now way a qualified social worker or mental health doctor, but I have experience in this subject and want to reach out to each and every one of you who feel as though you can not go on.
I will keep my story short, but those of you who have read my posts when i first joined here, or even a post that I wrote here only a few days ago will know that I have been to the bottom. In the last 18 months I have lost seven of my friends to this very tragedy, and have almost been a victim of it myself.
If you wish to hear my story you can find it here in my letter to Michael:
http://mjjcommunity.com/forum/showthread.php?p=2076007#post2076007
I want to give all of you who are on the verge of giving up hope a few things to think about:
My beautiful friend, and our inspiration has died. Think about how you are feeling right now. Think about the pain and loss you are feeling.The grief is tremendous. It feels like it will never end and there is no light. Sometimes it feels like the sun should never rise, and the darkness should never leave.
Now think of your family, think of your friends and all those around you who love with such an unconditional, beautiful love. Think of the people you could never dream of upsetting them and the mere thought of disappointing them sends you to tears.
Let me ask you this question...these people who you love and wish no harm to, would you want them to feel the loss you are feeling now? Would you want to be the cause of that pain?
Suicide is never the end. The pain and anguish that someone feels before they take there life does not end with their life. It ripples through those they shared that life with like a chainsaw. Disruptive and grotesque.
In even the darkest moments, there is always hope. We are all grieving, and there is nothing wrong with this. But these feelings of pain and anguish will subside, and we will be left with happy memories of Michael, when we can celebrate his life with newborn eyes and carry on his legacy.
When you are depressed, it is hard to remember the past, and how things were better. But think - there was a time when you were happier, when life was better, when life seemed worth living. You will feel this way again. I promise you.
I tried to take my own my life twice. I was suffering the most unbelievable pain imaginable. But I got through it, I was determined to change my life. I did. I have opportunites now I never dreamed I would have, and despite the occasional feeling of despair, I can recognise these are normal and that tomorrow is a new day.
Think to yourself every day:
Tomorrow, I may fall in love. Tomorrow, I may discover a new talent that will take my life in a new direction. Tomorrow, I may see the joy in a childs face and share that joy. Tomorrow, I may change someones life. Tomorrow, I may change MY life.
You will never know if you do not see tomorrow.
Life is a precious gift. Life is a miracle. Life is a learning curve, and love is the lesson.
There is nothing in life that cannot be fixed, as long as you are willing to ask for help. It took me 14 months of drug addiction and 2 suicide attempts to find the courage to ask for help. There is no shame in feeling helpless, only shame in not finding the help you need.
If anyone needs somebody to talk to, somebody who understands, please contact me. I will make time for anyone who reaches out to me.I am not religious, nor do i have any prejudices, just open ears, arms and heart. YOU ARE IMPORTANT. THE WORLD NEEDS YOU.
If you feel you need to talk to a professional, www.befrienders.org has a list of worldwide suicide hotlines, including help and advice pages.
I LOVE YOU ALL, IN ALL YOUR BEAUTY. WE ARE THE CHILDREN OF THIS WORLD, AND THE PARENTS OF TOMORROW.
Here are some tips that I found useful:
CONTACT a suicide prevention or crisis center or trusted friend, family member social worker, medical professional or rabbi, priest or minister and TALK. They will not think something is wrong with you or that you are "weird" or "crazy"
BE ACTIVE. Go for a walk and get some exercise. Often depressing and suicidal thoughts and feelings fade when something or someone else stimulates us.
DO SOMETHING - anything. It does not have to be a HUGE project - but a little project LIKE TIDYING UP a counter or small cupboard. Remember to PRAISE YOURSELF for the work you have done.
START A CREATIVE PROJECT in art, gardening, music, crafts, writing etc. Don't worry if your project is not a masterpiece. Many people have found when they are working on creative projects, they forget their painful suffering.
Find someone or an animal or plant who could USE YOUR LOVE AND CARE.
REMEMBER that along with your suicidal thoughts and feelings You are having other thoughts and feelings which are not suicidal.
LISTEN to your thoughts and feelings without analysing them, letting them come and go WITHOUT dwelling on them.
IDENTIFY and ACKNOWLEDGE other thoughts and feeling which are not suicidal.
REMEMBER that you have experienced times in your life when you did not have suicidal thoughts and feelings because you were not depressed but were hopeful at the time.
REMEMBER times in which you may have felt strong suicidal thoughts and feelings that eventually passed into times of other thoughts and feelings which were not depressing but WERE HOPEFUL and you were able to look forward.
ACKNOWLEDGE for yourself that having suicidal thoughts in the midst of other thoughts is emotionally draining and that you have shown incredible strength in remaining alive and staying alive in spite of the powerful suicidal thoughts and feelings that you may have.
In the same way that you do not believe or act upon all the thoughts and feelings that you may have, REMEMBER that just because you may have a suicidal thought or feeling, you do not have to believe or act upon the thought or feeling
I am shaking as I write this, but know that this thread has been started with pure and devoted intentions.
I am opening myself as a hotline to those of you who feel you need help. I am in now way a qualified social worker or mental health doctor, but I have experience in this subject and want to reach out to each and every one of you who feel as though you can not go on.
I will keep my story short, but those of you who have read my posts when i first joined here, or even a post that I wrote here only a few days ago will know that I have been to the bottom. In the last 18 months I have lost seven of my friends to this very tragedy, and have almost been a victim of it myself.
If you wish to hear my story you can find it here in my letter to Michael:
http://mjjcommunity.com/forum/showthread.php?p=2076007#post2076007
I want to give all of you who are on the verge of giving up hope a few things to think about:
My beautiful friend, and our inspiration has died. Think about how you are feeling right now. Think about the pain and loss you are feeling.The grief is tremendous. It feels like it will never end and there is no light. Sometimes it feels like the sun should never rise, and the darkness should never leave.
Now think of your family, think of your friends and all those around you who love with such an unconditional, beautiful love. Think of the people you could never dream of upsetting them and the mere thought of disappointing them sends you to tears.
Let me ask you this question...these people who you love and wish no harm to, would you want them to feel the loss you are feeling now? Would you want to be the cause of that pain?
Suicide is never the end. The pain and anguish that someone feels before they take there life does not end with their life. It ripples through those they shared that life with like a chainsaw. Disruptive and grotesque.
In even the darkest moments, there is always hope. We are all grieving, and there is nothing wrong with this. But these feelings of pain and anguish will subside, and we will be left with happy memories of Michael, when we can celebrate his life with newborn eyes and carry on his legacy.
When you are depressed, it is hard to remember the past, and how things were better. But think - there was a time when you were happier, when life was better, when life seemed worth living. You will feel this way again. I promise you.
I tried to take my own my life twice. I was suffering the most unbelievable pain imaginable. But I got through it, I was determined to change my life. I did. I have opportunites now I never dreamed I would have, and despite the occasional feeling of despair, I can recognise these are normal and that tomorrow is a new day.
Think to yourself every day:
Tomorrow, I may fall in love. Tomorrow, I may discover a new talent that will take my life in a new direction. Tomorrow, I may see the joy in a childs face and share that joy. Tomorrow, I may change someones life. Tomorrow, I may change MY life.
You will never know if you do not see tomorrow.
Life is a precious gift. Life is a miracle. Life is a learning curve, and love is the lesson.
There is nothing in life that cannot be fixed, as long as you are willing to ask for help. It took me 14 months of drug addiction and 2 suicide attempts to find the courage to ask for help. There is no shame in feeling helpless, only shame in not finding the help you need.
If anyone needs somebody to talk to, somebody who understands, please contact me. I will make time for anyone who reaches out to me.I am not religious, nor do i have any prejudices, just open ears, arms and heart. YOU ARE IMPORTANT. THE WORLD NEEDS YOU.
If you feel you need to talk to a professional, www.befrienders.org has a list of worldwide suicide hotlines, including help and advice pages.
I LOVE YOU ALL, IN ALL YOUR BEAUTY. WE ARE THE CHILDREN OF THIS WORLD, AND THE PARENTS OF TOMORROW.
Here are some tips that I found useful:
CONTACT a suicide prevention or crisis center or trusted friend, family member social worker, medical professional or rabbi, priest or minister and TALK. They will not think something is wrong with you or that you are "weird" or "crazy"
BE ACTIVE. Go for a walk and get some exercise. Often depressing and suicidal thoughts and feelings fade when something or someone else stimulates us.
DO SOMETHING - anything. It does not have to be a HUGE project - but a little project LIKE TIDYING UP a counter or small cupboard. Remember to PRAISE YOURSELF for the work you have done.
START A CREATIVE PROJECT in art, gardening, music, crafts, writing etc. Don't worry if your project is not a masterpiece. Many people have found when they are working on creative projects, they forget their painful suffering.
Find someone or an animal or plant who could USE YOUR LOVE AND CARE.
REMEMBER that along with your suicidal thoughts and feelings You are having other thoughts and feelings which are not suicidal.
LISTEN to your thoughts and feelings without analysing them, letting them come and go WITHOUT dwelling on them.
IDENTIFY and ACKNOWLEDGE other thoughts and feeling which are not suicidal.
REMEMBER that you have experienced times in your life when you did not have suicidal thoughts and feelings because you were not depressed but were hopeful at the time.
REMEMBER times in which you may have felt strong suicidal thoughts and feelings that eventually passed into times of other thoughts and feelings which were not depressing but WERE HOPEFUL and you were able to look forward.
ACKNOWLEDGE for yourself that having suicidal thoughts in the midst of other thoughts is emotionally draining and that you have shown incredible strength in remaining alive and staying alive in spite of the powerful suicidal thoughts and feelings that you may have.
In the same way that you do not believe or act upon all the thoughts and feelings that you may have, REMEMBER that just because you may have a suicidal thought or feeling, you do not have to believe or act upon the thought or feeling
And I feel bad for it. But what else can I do - especially when people from all over the world are on here. I would fly for people if it was possible 
