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Guys, please keep tweeting #JUSTICEFORMJ
Having read the prelim. discussion and updates threads I'm feeling ill already, and this is just the first day.
i know,it's ridiculous,I Cant believe they're still gonna go through with "He injected it himself theory"!!!
THis.It just hurts so bad but yet here we are still tarrying on, justice for Michael. The real justice would be him being here again.
I am afraid I am not handling this situation the right way. During the day I avoid using the internet (lol... it started just this week, before I was here most of the time). Then at night I do conect and check all the info and my heart starts aching. I feel pain. I feel anger. I feel stressed. I feel sad. And I feel totally confused. The more I heard about it, the worst I feel about Michael and his kids. My head knows this will be hard. I know they will say the worst about Michael, but despite all that, most of what they stay keeps hurting me more and more.
At times I think I should stay as far as possible from all this, for ultimately there is nothing I can do. But then, I feel I need to know, I need to understand.
I don't know. This is puzzling and heartbreaking
I feel gutted reading some of the things. Nothing is worth this. not Murray going to jail for a few months. Michael does not deserve to have his last shreds of privacy and dignity ripped off to send Murray to jail for a few months. I never read his autopsy. I could not stand the thought of him being dissected like that. I can't belive the kind of information that is coming out now. Michael is a very unlucky person - to have all this come out in death. He didn't deserve to die this way. He was too good to die this way.
I was reading this article the other day about resilience in human beings and the whole time I was thinking about Michael. The article said something along the lines of resilience being similar to physical strength. When faced with some obstacles/challenges, resilience develops but when faced with too many, it breaks down. We all know Michael was a strong person but how much could he endure? He survived 1993, he beat it back and did wonderfully. But 2005 broke him. It ruined his image. Even if Michael recovered, his image didn't. And that affected many things in his life. The people he could work with - I don't know how else to explain the kind of shady people he was surrounded by in his last years. The wandering that he did. How desperate must he have been to entrust himself to Murray? I blame AEG squarely for that desperation. Seriously, I can never blame Michael for anything because he endured more than any of us could imagine and always did the best he could. Hw was a human being but a much better one than most on this planet. I blame all the bastards surrounding him, always waiting to pounce, to exploit, to take advantage of that gentle soul. I curse the day Randy Philips met Tohme or whoever that made Michael sign that bloody contract.
I'm honestly afraid of what the defense will say. We know the press will go with it. They will print it in bold. And I can't take it anymore. The man suffered enough in life. His poor kids! How i feel for them!
Hearing about how they found him, on the bed, completely killed me.
I can't stop crying!