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Has MJ's death sunk in for you yet? It's been almost three weeks.. i'm still so sad about it :( I don't like this world without Michael. He was so dear to me, and his music has been a part of my life ever since I can remember. Knowing the gentle and kind soul who created it no longer resides in this world is sometimes too much to bear :cry: all I can think about, is why? why did it have to happen? why did he have to die, and right when he was about to make a comeback? why couldn't he have had a few more years with us? i don't even care if he didn't perform, i just wish he could've been happy a little while longer :( it's so unfair
 
I'm having short moments where it hits me like a train - then a couple of minutes later I'm back in "denial" again.
I don't even know if it's denial because I watch his concerts and stuff, and it's hard to fathom that he isn't here no more since he isn't exactly a person you met everyday.

But this sadness and dark cloud I feel like I'm under don't seem to go away.
His music "feels" so much more right now for some reason, and it's hard to explain... a song like "Will You Be There" isn't a song any more... it's like a part of yourself.
You sit and listen to it, and it's like a body part, like an arm or a leg... I really can't explain it better than that. It's just, some songs are now so incredible vivid.
 
Still can't believe it and I don't like to think about believing it.
 
I've been trying my hardest not to think bout it...then i see the memorial footage and it brings it right bck to reality.
i just cant belive we wont see him anymore
 
I still can`t think about him without crying.... I have really been in love with him for such a long time, i would do anything to have him back with us. I hate all the people who say that he is still alive, and the web-sites that a lot of people post that they have seen him at different locations after he died. I hate it so mush because i really want it to be true, but i know in my heart that it is not.... My heart is broken.... It`s bleeding.... I got a mail two days ago from a woman in Argentina saying that she thinks Michael has mooved into her next door house. Because of all the dressed big men and guards there. And a toy truck came in the middle of the night. Se also saw a very white man, with black curls.... Oh how i wish it was true.
 
don't think so.... i have moments when i realise, looking at 'Agnes's' signature set me off last night. It will something else soon, whether it be a perticular song, performance, picture, speech.
 
The memorial did it for me, that's when it sunk it. It actually made things worse, denial was a much more bearable phase. But there are still moments when "I just can't believe he's gone".
 
I agree with what Gwy said; the memorial really was, it.(For me, anyway).
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its not real for me either i listen to his music everday on my way home from work everyday and watched his videos with my mamma and we just sit and think can u believe michael jackson is really gone everybody at work comes up to me man im sorry about michael i know how much he meant to you just today my friend jason came up to me people really have been respectful towards me the stupid comments are to the side mostly or under the breath. and mostly some forgive me but mostly these people ( caucasian) people comparing him to elvis and i get on that ass with facts.... im invincible for us on defending him. i am from south Texas... the south is still like this sadly alot of you i know probably dont deal with idiots as much.
 
Has it sunk in yet? Not really... and to be really honest with everyone, I'm not sure I want it too. When I first heard the news I was half-asleep in bed listening to the radio and they said Michael Jackson was dead. It woke me with a start. At first I thought maybe the radio people were just lying like so much of the press had done during his life but they started playing interviews with people who confirmed the death. Getting up I raced to the TV and switched it on. There on the screen and in huge letters it had Michael Jackson dead at 50. It felt like someone kicked me so hard in the stomach. It was hard to breathe and I remember just crying uncontrollably thinking this cant be true.

And you know its been several weeks now but it still feels like a bad dream most days. I keep thinking maybe this isnt really happening. Maybe collectively we are all having the same bad dream but I know its not, and thats the worse part because Michael is gone and its so hard to say goodbye because he was, and continues to be, a part of our lives and I guess deep down, if we still love someone, still care for someone, then theyre not really dead. We keep them in our heart forever...
 
It has for me. I have this weird feeling. To all those members who are mums or dads who have children who look up to idols that have died before they were born, i feel like one of those children. It's kind of like the relationship between Cher and her mum in Clueless. It's so hard to put into words but at the same time, even though i was a fan before he died, it feels like this is the second era of fanship for me.
 
For me it was the memorial. When the brothers brought that casket in it hit me. Michael Jackson was gone :cry:
 
Actually, I don't know.
The memorial definitely made it concrete and that point I realised what had happened but as BruceWayne said, since Michael wasn't really near me physically, I didn't see him everyday and so on, it's difficult to understand he's gone forever. There's been times when there wasn't any news or new pics so kind of this feels like that.. but then I think about it.. and it's not that. This time he's really gone.
It's very hard to explain. Sometimes I got it, sometimes I don't. I feel like I have to constantly repeat myself 'Michael is really gone' so I could undertsand it and then I feel sad but if I stop thinking about it then I feel pretty normal.. it's weird.
 
In general it has not sunk in, no, but every now and then it does and my heart becomes heavy and this emptiness fills me. Other times I remember him with smiles and laughter, and other times I forget that he's no longer living among us, physically. Grieving is a process and it will take time, for all of us. I cry when I feel the need to cry, laugh when he makes me happy, and live the way he'd like for us to. :)
 
nup, he's kind of everywhere at the moment. Once he's buried and we know why he died i think reality will hit
 
It became real for me too when his brothers wheeled in his casket with allll those beautiful roses. It still pains me even now. I don't know when it'll stop or if it ever will.
 
I still want to be in denial at times. And I still do tend to cry over him. Especially when I realize it has been a week since the memorial. And I do realize that Michael is forever gone. But I do know he is happy and at peace now. But I still do miss him like crazy and I always forever will. But watching him and listening to him has help me miss him less than I do. Especially watching him because I remembering Michael of how he was and not where he is now. I am so very thankful to all that MJ stuff I had either taped or bought over the years. And so does having all of these wonderful MJ dreams I have been having alot lately. Like the one I had last night was one of the best ones I had have in a long time. I just wish I didn't woke up from it cause it was so good. Michael was just so very good to me in that dream.
 
No... it hit me few times.. like when I first turned on news channel that day.. and the memorial and stuff.. but I just have this strange feeling of calmness.. and I just feel like he's still here. :(
 
:no: Im still livin in my "Michael" world..the world that is filled with Michael's beautiful smiles..laughs..the thought of Michael really made my day..whenever times are difficult..the thought of him really change it all..omg..

I have his pictures in my mobile phone, on my room's wall..i will make sure i can see Michael wherever i go..even though i cant bear to think i will never saw any new pics of him..but i will try my best not to think of it..Michael will always live in me..lookin at his pics will definitely put a smile on my face..but it hurts..truly hurts..I love and miss Michael so much..
 
No. I still cant accept it. I still cry almost everyday and i think about michael all the time now. nothing eles crosses mind much anymore except Michael. I dont think i will ever come to terms with michael's passing. He was my world! He was everything to me. Along with some of you i to wish the rumors of him being alive were true. I wish so badly that they were! but we all know Michael is gone and that he would NEVER do anything like that ever. He would never hurt his family, friends, children and fans like that. Michael is gone and i cant accept it. I just want to know Why? Why Michael? Why did this happen? Why did he have to go!? I wish it is was all just a bad dream and we all wake up ands Michael would be on london right now performing his ass off for all his fans but he's not. I miss him so much every single day. :(
 
i still can,t beleive it either,i know he has passed but i find myself wanting to beleive in the rumours that he faked his death,which deap down i know he wouldn,t do this to his family children or fans,but there is just this part of me that doesn,t want to except he,s gone,i miss him so much.
 
BruceWayne said:
I'm having short moments where it hits me like a train - then a couple of minutes later I'm back in "denial" again.
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that exactly how I feel - I'm all hyper and trying to find things to do and I talk sooo much too much and then BANG! it hits me and I break down in tears
 
not really . it's like i know this is a fact , but in my mind , my soul , it's like he's here forever. i've never met him , but it's been like a week now since i've started thinking about him the way i used to do it , prior to june 25th.....that he is somewhere out there and i'll get to meet/see him one day....i just can't accept all this...and reading all those sites out there that come up with all these theories doesn't help either...:doh:....right now , the whole discussion about Elizabeth Taylor's Tweeter posts to Dr. Klein has really got me wondering...:huh:...i know it's probably not true , but at the same time , it's like i want all that to be true....though the tweeter part is really suspicious to me...:huh:
 
The One. said:
Actually, I don't know.
The memorial definitely made it concrete and that point I realised what had happened but as BruceWayne said, since Michael wasn't really near me physically, I didn't see him everyday and so on, it's difficult to understand he's gone forever. There's been times when there wasn't any news or new pics so kind of this feels like that.. but then I think about it.. and it's not that. This time he's really gone.
It's very hard to explain. Sometimes I got it, sometimes I don't. I feel like I have to constantly repeat myself 'Michael is really gone' so I could undertsand it and then I feel sad but if I stop thinking about it then I feel pretty normal.. it's weird.
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thats exactly how i feel, the permanence of him being gone will take a while to sink in, that always happens when you lose someone
 
To me I think it did. I'm not that much in denial... I've tried to force myself that I can't escape. I light up a candle for Michael every evening. Same for my boyfriend... I don't know if I can force myself on to work myself through all this also... but in being here often as much as having pics around me... I try to force myself to comprehend.
Also I've started to work in the backyard... something I never did before... but I've planted some new flowers there... for my boyfriend and also some for Michael. They are really nice and now I do have to care for them, water them and all that... it helps me also.
 
sisterrose said:
In general it has not sunk in, no, but every now and then it does and my heart becomes heavy and this emptiness fills me. Other times I remember him with smiles and laughter, and other times I forget that he's no longer living among us, physically. Grieving is a process and it will take time, for all of us. I cry when I feel the need to cry, laugh when he makes me happy, and live the way he'd like for us to. :)
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I agree, I feel the same way...
 
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