As was I. That was in 1995. He was terribly ill, and I remember seeing on CNN that there was some question as to whether or not his heart would have to be shocked into a normal rhythm. I think he was in the hospital for about a week? That show was never rescheduled. Michael, himself, has said that he was "fragile." His history of illnesses, accidents, and cancellations, plus the fact he went on record saying he never wanted to tour again. . makes me not quite understand the fans who are completely convinced he was in tip-top shape and ready for the TII concerts? I guess people believe what they have to believe for emotional well-being?
It was clear to me, too, that something would happen and I had a feeling of great dread when the fifty shows were announced. I told close friends about it, and felt badly for those who were getting tickets and making arrangements. I KNEW it would never happen. I just. . . knew. I thought even ten shows was too much, since he hadn't performed a concert in 12 years! And since he was in a wheelchair in the summer of 2008? And then fifty shows? I would have expected that he'd test the water first, with a one-time tv special. The risk to him, and to AEG, in scheduling these shows was absolutely enormous. I am still not convinced if they actually expected that he'd be able to do them? I think he probably didn't know, either. How could he?
I saw TII -- once. I felt I had to, to be able to do "investigations." He still "had it" in terms of vocals. His voice sounded great. The dance clips we saw were short. He looked terribly thin to me. He sometimes smiled, and I guess he was happy to be back on stage again? He was very beautiful. I didn't like how Kenny Ortega was treating him, at all. I thought he was condescending. It looked like Michael wasn't the one in charge -- not really -- and he always had been before. It was rough seeing the movie. I went alone, and took a box of tissues.
Sometimes I think the world has gone entirely mad! People can look at exactly the same image, and see such different things, or explain things away? There is one photo from TII of Michael in a white t-shirt. He had never, EVER been so thin. He always tried to gain weight before tours, because he lost so much from the effort. But for this one? He was starting with NOTHING. No extra weight, at all. He was tiny. He'd always had relatively broad shoulders, but his shoulders were quite narrow. His. . uhm. . booty . . . was entirely gone! (compared to how he was in the HIStory tour?) He wore sunglasses nearly all the time -- which I'd never seen him do in rehearsals. Why? We've all seen the same photos, but people see what they must see?
If he was physically unable to do the fifty shows, he was truly worth more dead than alive. And now he's dead. .. . . . .
That is my opinion. I don't "require" that others share it. . . . .