Was a bit of a fan as a kid, had a few tapes, an MJ doll, etc.... but it wasn't until I saw him on the AMA awards in 93 that I became a huge fan. I have so many fond memories of waiting for new releases.. like HIStory... and staying up to watch him on tv.... omg I about had a coronary waiting for the 30th anniversary thing to begin haha....
Also a lot of harsh memories of being teased, bullied and put down in school and beyond for being a fan of his... but those things just make you stronger anyhow
I joined MJNO sometime in 2003 I think?...When ever it was that I got net connection on my own. That place opened my eyes to the fact I was NOT the only obsessed MJ fan. What a revelation that was for me! To have others to converse with about all aspects of Michael Jackson was so crazy cool after so many years of being shunned.
The trial was really tough....My coworkers really gave me a hard time for thinking he was innocent and made sure I heard exactly what they thought about him all the time... even some of my family was mean about it...although most were good about it, at least when I was in the room.
When MJNO closed, I was shocked and sad and felt a little cut off, but felt it was a sign to move on for a while from the whole MJ online thing....
Then life got crazy for a while and I ended up in Australia of all places...
Then I woke up one morning to my friend stopping me before seeing the tv, telling me... no I think more like preparing me... that MJ may had died... she didn't want me to freak out when I saw the tv.... she was so kind that way. She saw how hard the trial and the scandals and the balcony thing, etc had been on me... so she just knew to do that...
It was like having my heart and soul and happiness ripped out of me, thrown to the ground, and pounded on by the feet of every mean person on the planet... horrible. Just horrible. All the fun times, fun fan times together, fun everything MJ, stomped out, snuffed out. It was absolutely crushing to me.
And then I seeked out the only people that truly would understand was was going on in my head.... I found this place, MJJC... and you lot. :wub:
It was like coming home again.
I ran into people I used to chat with, talk to on the phone, text, etc.. during the trial and everything. It's been great. And becoming Jr. Moderator has been not only a priviledge, but a positive way to feel like I am doing something, anything... like channeling my sadness and sorrow into something helpful here. It's given me something to do to push away my bit of depression MJ's passing has caused. I'm very thankful for this place because of that.
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sorry for rambling... i guess i just felt like sharing that right now.
And I think every fan, new and old, we are equal, and bring something to the table here. Older fans need to be respected for what they've done and how they've contributed and fought over the years, but also newer fans need to be welcomed and hugged and taught ALL the wonderful lessons we've learned of MJ over the years... so he is never EVER forgotten.
-Misty